My fears still surface around getting through and then with each new day, I feel an acceptance with my feelings and how erratic they are! I’ve always been emotionally composed or so I thought! so then to become extremely anxious, feeling that every withdrawal symptom I self diagnose as cancer and the tears, they just keep coming! But it also feels good to feel! I pushed everything away with a cigarette. I feel as though I’m mourning a lot of my life! Even my marriage again, that ended 20 years ago!
On the up, even though anxiety is high I feel a calmness shining through, this feels good, my skin and teeth look amazing! I’ve lost the dull look which you get from 35 years! I love smelling! Everything! 😂😂😂 and I feel a sense of achievement!
This site has helped me immensely, reading peoples stories also shows me how ‘normal’ my symptoms are! So a big thank you to everyone who have shared their stories and to admin who encourage and support our quitting lives! 🙌👍👏👏👏😘😘😘