Confession!

[angelinafoote]

I did it...I relapsed after numerous drinks on Saturday night

Let me tell you...I sure as heck paid for it the next day by vomiting for hours!

Lesson learned that's for sure.

But I must say and no it's not a justification however, since my hubby and I quit and went through all our withdraw symptoms, one of the things that hid in the back of my mind that I tried to ignore was if my hubby smoked again then I would "get to" smoke again and that's what happened.

The bright side? I got that monkey off my back and will continue to count days as per normal because I now know deep within myself that I really did want to quit for myself whether or not he stays quit or not is his prerogative not mine

Side note...do you guys know if I am going to totally withdraw again??

[angelinafoote]

And will I lose my badge?

[RoisinO1 Administrator 3 Years Smoke Free]

Hey angelinafoote - good to hear from you again but sorry to hear that you have had a fall - huge respect to you though for coming back on here to share with us, that took courage and honesty - I remember well when you first posted to be sure to treat this journey as your own unique one and not let anyone or anything get in the way of achieving it - you now know what you have to do and as long as we learn from previous attempts thats all that matters - unfortunately as you have broke your smoke free time, your badge will be re-set, what new date would you like?

With regards the withdrawal, it just takes 'one' cigarette to get the poisonous of chemicals and nicotine back into our system - was it just Saturday night you smoked? If so, the nicotine will now be out of your system by the end of today, but as you know, the mental battle begins then, please stay close to us and post anytime, we are here to help you through this and have all been there.....

[angelinafoote in reply to RoisinO1]

Uuuuugh that sucks!! Yes it was just Saturday But I guess it'll be tomorrow as it was the wee hours of the night so technically Sunday.

The good news is there isn't much mental battle yet.

So bummed that I need to start my badge days over again but that's the consequence I pay, I understand! Shame on me!

[RoisinO1 Administrator 3 Years Smoke Free in reply to angelinafoote]

No shame on you at all angelinafoote - many fall and we don't here from them again here, by re-starting your milestone journey it tends to keep the motivation never to let it happen again, whereas, if didn't do it, would make it easier to continue to have 'just the one'....

Be prepared to attack at all times You CAN do it!

[CocoaXChange Valued Contributor]

The important thing Angelina is that you have done the right thing and are getting right back to it. 90% of us have had lapses.

I can't say whether the withdrawal will be any easier. I previously quit a halve dozen times, but I didn't have the sense to go back. So my quits were years apart and a complete restart for me.

[KathieO 100 Days Smoke Free]

Angelina...I dont know how long you quit but i would stay away from the temptations. Just until you totally have not smoking under your belt. Its hard to get rid of that monkey. The association is so hard. But it seems to be with all of us. Stay close to us. We got your back!

[RoisinO1 Administrator 3 Years Smoke Free in reply to KathieO]

Couldn't agree more KathieO - alcohol seems to be the worst temptation and top cause to relapse....great advice you gave there

[KathieO 100 Days Smoke Free]

Thanks Roisin01!

[angelinafoote]

It's true and will definitely abstain from drinks! Thanks all for the encouragement!

[RoisinO1 Administrator 3 Years Smoke Free]

Hey angelinafoote - how are you getting on?

[angelinafoote]

Just fine! Still on the quit train! Both hubbs and I have had some minor withdraw symptoms but are doing ok. Thanks so much for checking in I truly appreciate it

[RoisinO1 Administrator 3 Years Smoke Free in reply to angelinafoote]

Good to read angelinafoote - keep us posted when you get a chance