hi all, hope everyone's having a good day so far. Today is my first day of quitting smoking. I have quit twice before for over a year, both fails were due to a tough life event and me thinking i was "safe" to have "just one" as i never really thought about smoking anymore, so i'll be on the look out for that trap if i can get that far again!
my other 2 times i have quite cold turkey but now i think my addiction is so much stronger and i really struggle at work with withdrawal, I'm a consultant and need to be fairly eloquent - when i have withdrawal i feel drunk and my brain goes blank!!! So this time i have vaping and niquitin tabs and i just feel that if i use them to keep me comfortable and not let myself get to a massive craving then it will be fine, i'll soon break the habit, i just need this to take the edge off.
I have wanted to quit for so long now, every cigarette i have had for the last 6 months has been spent thinking about giving up, worrying i have lip cancer every-time i have a sore. I his my smoking from everyone, i was embarrassed and ashamed. Plus i can hardly say i can't afford to save for a house deposit if i can afford to smoke!!
My biggest fear is the physical symptoms, they make my foggy brained, slurred speech, achy hands and restlessness. Hopefully with my preparation this time it won't be too hard to get through that, i remember how amazing it was when i got to 4, 5, 6 months last time and how ridiculous i thought it was to smoke. Can't wait to get back there!
So there you go, all of my reasons, hopefully i can keep revisiting this post to remind me.