Wow this year has gone quickly and flawlessly and i have hardly thought of smoking, i didnt get here quite so easily in the beginning, lots of tears, tantrums, walking endless miles but as the days, then weeks, then months passed it got easier and easier and then years started to slip by.
It is by far the best decision i ever made i dont for a second regret it, i no longer miss smoking at all, the walking i used as my coping method at the beginning still remains my coping method now, if i am stressed i will automatically have an overbearing urge to walk my troubles away and dont even consider or think about smoking, i think i replaced my cravings with walking and re mapped my brain some how.
I feel after endless reading and educating myself i understand the smoking brain almost fully now and the mind games we play with ourselves.
As i celebrate my 4 years i always keep it at the forfront of my mind so i never get complacant, not in a think about it all the time kinda way but more remind myself at times the control it had over me, one example seeing the shoppers dive out the supermarket and spark up, or the poor souls hiding around dark corners in the rain and wind just to get there fix.i will never forget i was one of them but i choose not to going back to being one of them.
stay strong everyone and happy new year