this evening will be the 4 week aniversary of my last cigarette.
I am feeling sort of uneasy.
There is lots of good:
The major constant craves are gone and the withdrawal symptoms are long gone. I no longer spend most of my day with the feeling that my head might explode at any minute.
Physically I have stopped coughing and generally feel more well. I found out of Friday (office health clinic) that my blood Pressure may be a bit High... I am 32 years old that frightens me I will have to go see a real doctor to confirm.... but this is more incentive to not smoke.
My 8 block walk from the subway to office without a cigarette or 2 no longer feels like climbing mount everest
So I sould feel great.... BUT
I feel strange. I cant make decisions easily. When I go shopping I often either buy too much or leave the store with nothing. I am impatient and get agrrivated when I have to wait for anything. I have been having trouble motivating myself to do things I should be doing. Its like I cant kickstart a project without a cigarette so I spend a whole lot of time thinking about what to do next and then do nothing. I cant focus at work. All of these things are compounded by some stressful personal situations. I know that smoking is not the way to cope with any of these problems but my subconsious mind keeps hinting. I am frustrated because I really dont want to be a smoker. There is no good to come of it. I need to find some other way to deal with the psycological aspect of quitting.
This forum has helped because it is good to know that I am not alone in this and I am not totally crazy for feeling some of the things I do.