Feeling sad

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Dads having a new kitchen fitted by the council, went last night to finish clearing out.

He has Parkinson's , and smoking related illnesses, so sad to see him struggle.

He has pills machines all over, just to help him breath.

He's proud I've quit.

I could cry, and have a fag.

Of to work so that might help a bit.

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This is going to sound like a weird reply Tracey:

I had an argument with my OH on the weekend. It's the first one since I've quit. There was the usual tightly controlled angry exchange followed by weeping and wailing, and eventually the hugs and promises that we would both try harder.

BUT during all this not once did I think I need a fag.

I was so pleased. Luckily I only realised afterwards and didn't tell him mid yell. 'This is great we're arguing and I don't want to smoke.'

Emotion was a huge trigger for me and it looks like it is for you too. Deep breaths, and stay quit. It gets better and there's nothing better than basking in a father's proudness.

[nsd_user663_2681]

Hi Tracey... its a roller coaster this isnt it? so up and down... like jenny said hang in there chuck, things can only get better x

[nsd_user663_60964]

You should be proud of yourself too Tracey

You've not only made your father proud of you, you're clearly a wonderful daughter to him.

Hope you're feeling better now.

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Stay strong Tracey, You can do this.

[nsd_user663_59644]

Thanks all

Got dad for tea, he's not great, but have not smoked. Another day nearly over.

Just sooo terrible to see him, he cannot breath well b...y cigs, would be band if they brought them out today..

Not smokes today,

But my god I feel like it.

Sooo difficult at the mo,,

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Sending you big (((((hugs)))))

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You're right Tracey

There is no way you'd get a licence to make/sell cigarettes now.

There is nothing worse in this world than watching someone you love suffer and not being able to do anything about it. It's an absolute torture. My heart goes out to you.

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Chin up Tracey, you can keep going, I know you can.

You don't want to be starting over like me do you? :mad:

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Soooo difficult

Dad had tea, he's soooo struggling , freckng fags. Just want to cry, and have a fag. I know it's negative, but only lost mum a year ago. Is so difficult want a fag, yet mum passed away and although had other illnesses smoking was a factor in her death, so why do I feel such a urge to smoke, think I'm a nut case.

[nsd_user663_54559]

Hi Tracey,

Maybe it isn't so strange given that having a smoke has been your go to place for so long. It takes time to change that. Try to be strong in this and think about how far you have come.

I wish I could help more, but I am sending you a hug from the states!!!

Stay close here and keep posting. Tomorrow will come.....

~S

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Tracey I wish I knew the right words to say to you, honestly I do.

You are not alone here girl, we will all support you through this as best we can, as Sherri said, stay close and keep posting.

I understand that you are hurting now and seeing you Dad like this is not easy for you, but please remember one thing hun, smoking won't change anything. Smoking won't bring your Mum back or help your Dad.

You posted earlier today that your Dad was proud of you for giving up, well I want you to know that I am proud of you too, and I'm sure I'm not the only one here that is also proud of you.

Stay strong Tracey, you CAN do this.

Keep on keeping on. Sending you positive vibes and best wishes.

(((( hugs ))))

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Karrie

THANKYOU is it me or do some people just sail through life? No problems

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Thank you all

Have told my self, won't smoke today, had glass wine so can't go buy any ,

But hope tomorrow is better.

Well done all who are quitting

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well done you, awful day done.

Tick them off, you do not need to smoke today.

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Hope things are better for you today Tracey and that you had a good night's sleep.

[nsd_user663_59644]

Thank you all

Yes up this morning,patch on and dong ok,

Thank you all

It's a new day, my ledge is not smoke.