I wasn't going to say anything, I had some bad news yesterday evening my brother in-law had a massive hart attack yesterday and passed away. I had not wanted a ciggie it was not my 1st thought, that was my sister, she will not let any of us in except her daughter. I had to get this of my chest as I have thought about smoking this evening I know it will not solve anything. My sister and brother in-law stopped smoking 11 years ago and never looked back they both enjoyed life as non smokers more than they ever did as smokers.
Out of respect for my brother in-law and I know he would be very upset if I use his death as an excuse to smoke that I have decided to talk about it and not give in as it wont solve anything and I will would be full of regrets. I feel better for writing this down and reading it I just think that the old me would of reached for the packet of 20 fags chained smoked them and even believed they were making it all better. What a fool the old me was and I'm so glad I have this forum to make me see clearly.