84 days for me and feeling sad and tempted

84 days today but really don't feel like celebrating - my cat is very poorly and 'am waiting to hear whether or not he has cancer and will need chemo in the next couple of days - needless to say I did think quite hard about having a ciggie but resisted. Not sure how strong I'll stay over the next few days but will do my best.. Cancer seems to be dogging my life, my dad died from it in 2000, I was diagnosed with it in 2000, my mum in 2001, my last cat died of it in 2002 and now my Vinnie might have it...

Sorry to be so depressive....

just felt the need to let it all out..

xxx

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  • Hey Sweet, I am so sorry life is so stressful at the moment, but please stay strong you have done soooo well and really having a ciggy is not going to help in the long run.

    Cancer is a horrible disease and I bet all of us have been affected by it in some way or another, but this is also another reason to stay away from the cancer sticks.

    Please keep going you have done so well. Wait to see what the vet has to say and I hope it is better than you are expecting.

    Good luck!

  • Hey Sweet, I am so sorry life is so stressful at the moment, but please stay strong you have done soooo well and really having a ciggy is not going to help in the long run.

    Cancer is a horrible disease and I bet all of us have been affected by it in some way or another, but this is also another reason to stay away from the cancer sticks.

    Please keep going you have done so well. Wait to see what the vet has to say and I hope it is better than you are expecting.

    Good luck!

    Thanks Trying - I know that this is the last thing I should do and to be honest I'm just glad I have the cold from hell which is really helping me resist temptation!

    As you say, just need to wait until the results come in day after tomorrow - keeping everything crossed.

    xxx

  • I will keep all crossed too, let us know how it goes.

    And well done for staying so strong! Proud of you!

  • Sweet.. hope things turn out OK with your kitty. Pets can be so important i is hard to see them suffer. I still miss my dog... she has been gone 5 years... I notice when I am dreaming she is always still around though.

    Hang in there... I am sure the irony of smoking because you are upset about cancer is not lost on yuo

    84 days is a long ass time not to smoke... seriously you will be so mad at yourself if you give in.... Im going to keep telling this to people so I can get it in my own damn head ... smoking does not make anything better.. you wont even feel better for more than a minute if that... and then you will feel worse because you smoked.

  • Sweet.. hope things turn out OK with your kitty. Pets can be so important i is hard to see them suffer. I still miss my dog... she has been gone 5 years... I notice when I am dreaming she is always still around though.

    Hang in there... I am sure the irony of smoking because you are upset about cancer is not lost on yuo

    84 days is a long ass time not to smoke... seriously you will be so mad at yourself if you give in.... Im going to keep telling this to people so I can get it in my own damn head ... smoking does not make anything better.. you wont even feel better for more than a minute if that... and then you will feel worse because you smoked.

    Thanks Kenzo,

    I'm steadily working my way through a bottle of Baileys at the moment :D and then it's early night and work tomorrow. Will visit my puss after work which might or might not be such a good idea...

    xxx

    :)

  • aw honey, poor you, this is all just so terrible :eek:

    Your baby cat needs you to smell like Mummy not a smelly ash tray, thats what I told myself when I lost my dog at the beginning of October, smoking is more likely to bring cancer knocking at your door so don't do it, look how far you have come

    it would be better to spend your time with your cat not out on the step smoking,

    let us know how he is

    Thanks Boudee,

    went to vet hospital to see Vinnie this evening and of course burst into floods of tears - not helped by the vet saying that I need to prepare myself that the results tomorrow are probably not going to be good news.

    She did say that I could take Vin home with me tomorrow for the weekend - but I can't even spoil him with food as he's on a low fat regime which he hates... Never mind I will just lavish him with loads of hugs and cuddles.

    Still not smoked but am sorely tempted...

    Hugs

    xxx

  • Im so so so sorry to hear about your poor Vinnie, I love my cat Bilbo more than anything else in this world, (except for the children of course), he is my baby and I dont know what I would do if anything happened to him, so you have my absolute sympathy and I hope the little guy is ok.

    Like Boudee said he needs you to be strong and be there for him, and smelling like the mummy he knows and loves so much.

    Although you feel like it will make you feel better it is a knee jerk reaction to dealing with stressful and upsetting situations. Just remeber it is the addiction talking and it wont make you feel any better in the long run.

    Get yourself a nice bottle of something nice to drink, a big bar of choccy and spoil your little man rotten, you both deserve it!

    *hugs*

    charlene.xx :o

  • Awww Sweet my heart goes out to you. I am a huge animal lover and it breaks my heart to hear that one is not well :(

    I hope all is going to turn out okay, but remember that everything happens for a reason and smoking will not change the outcome of the results and it will only make matters worse. Your health is important and you need to be strong for your baby! Cancer sticks will make things worse for your baby and for yourself. Don;t allow that terrible nic demon to get you now in this stressful time because your life will be more stressful when the demon pollutes your body and turns into huge health issues for you.

    Don't do it hun ~ you are strong enough to deal with whatever comes your way on your own without that nasty ciggie!

    Bless you! My fingers are crossed and prayers are with you. :)

  • Sweet~

    Sooooooooooo Sorry to hear about your beloved kitty! I am a big time cat lover so I hate to hear when one is not doing well. I hope you chose to bring him home with you because he needs the love of his mommy! PLEEEEEEASE don't light up! It is so not worth it. You need to stay strong right now:D I hope all goes well. keep us posted..

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