Well after over 8 glorious months something terrible happened. I had a photoshoot to do, and due to the nature of a rather terrible industry I was told it would not happen until I lost 1/2 a stone.... The precise amount of weight I gained during my wonderful successful quit.
I tried running and dieting etc but nothing happened ( being naturally pretty skinny I am no good at dieting, I like to eat all the time, it just happens I like to eat more when not smoking and have very little control over this!!) So after a month of this I decided to start smoking again only to get me through the shoot and then stop again after... so after 8 months I conciously planned and went to the shops and bought some roll ups... 1 week later I had lost over 1/2 a stone (crazy) shortly after I did the shoot, then I re-read allen carr and attempted to quit, 3 days later i started again and I have been yoyoing ever since.....Nightmare i don't want to be a smelly smoker anymore.
To be honest I had almost forgot about this forum and how helpful it was to me during my best quit ever.
sooooo... Now i feel sad and stupid and stuck and i just want to get back to how it was as I felt soo good as a non smoker and didn't feel that I wanted or needed them anymore.
it was my birthday yesturday tommorow is my new quit date wish me luck and help meeeeeeee