Hello Day One

Well here it goes!!

Put my last fags out 15 minutes ago, so I'm now a non-smoker.

Didn't enjoy my last smokes at all, they tasted disgusting, smelled disgusting and i was perfectly aware of why I smoked them - addiction.

Sprayed my last fags with Febreeze and binned them, but I am keeping my ashtray pouch and some fag ends to remind me how vile smoking smells. If that doesn't put me off, nothing will!!

Going to take it gently, patch up when I wake up, chew lots and vent more on here most likely but this is it.

Here we go :eek::cool:

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  • Well done Gemma! Great to have you back!! We are all here to help. YOU GO GIRL!!!!

    Sarah x

  • I just know you're going to do this Gemma, you know enough to stand strong if any tough times come. You may well find that you don't though, I hope so anyway.

    We are all here if you need us for anything. I'm sending positive, strong vibes your way and I'll keep 'em coming all day long.

    Be proud, you're a non smoker now!! :D:D

    Molly x

  • Annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd.......she's off!:D

    Go Gemma Go!!!!

    Yep here it goes :D :eek:

    We are all here for you Gem. Hope today is ok for you will catch up after work x

    Thanks Vicki!!

    So far my brain can't work out why i haven't been out for a fag - it's a patch and bit of gum instead.

    Feel slightly odd but more or less OK

  • Well done Gemma! Great to have you back!! We are all here to help. YOU GO GIRL!!!!

    Sarah x

    YAY thanks hun :)

    It's good to be back!!

    Gemma with you in spirit honey. Welcome to your new life as a non smoker. xxx

    Here it goes!! :D :D

    Thanks hun x

  • I just know you're going to do this Gemma, you know enough to stand strong if any tough times come. You may well find that you don't though, I hope so anyway.

    We are all here if you need us for anything. I'm sending positive, strong vibes your way and I'll keep 'em coming all day long.

    Be proud, you're a non smoker now!! :D:D

    Molly x

    Aww thanks Molly :)

    That really means a lot and I am proud, no more nasty stinky smoking!! x

  • Great stuff Gemma. Hope day 1 goes well for you :D

  • Great stuff Gemma. Hope day 1 goes well for you :D

    Thanks Lindy :)

    Hope you have a fab smoke free day too!!

  • Glad to see you back at it Gemma. One day at a time, slow and steady wins the race. Then when you cross the finish line each day you can kick the nicodemon and enjoy it.

  • Glad to see you back at it Gemma. One day at a time, slow and steady wins the race. Then when you cross the finish line each day you can kick the nicodemon and enjoy it.

    Thanks Mark :)

    At the mo I feel like I'm on the wrong end of a coffee binge, all fidgety and funny in my fingers - plus someone took my brain out and replaced it with cotton wool, meanies.

    *chants to herself* it's a healing process

  • Have you put your emergency kit in your office drawer? (nagging naggy nag monster wants to know!:p)

    Yes naggy nag monster!! :p

    1 patch 1 slide of gum so if this one peels off I can cope without strangling people!!

    Ooh and i dug out my Tangle too

  • Good!:cool: Glug the water, chew the gum, smoke the post-it - whatever gets you through! Right behind you sweetie, every step :)

    Yep I will hun :)

    Some strangling might be a good idea too :p

    Might have to roll myself a post-it later :eek:

  • Hi Gemma,

    Having read some of your previous posts I am sure you can do it. You did SO well last time (had it not been for the e-cig I'm certain you would have been in the penthouse by now).

    Hope today goes well and really glad you're on the road again. :)

    The penthouse beckons I think!! :D

  • Awesome :D

    Rooting for you, Gemma!

    You will be fine today.

  • Hi Gemma,

    Having read some of your previous posts I am sure you can do it. You did SO well last time (had it not been for the e-cig I'm certain you would have been in the penthouse by now).

    Hope today goes well and really glad you're on the road again. :)

    The penthouse beckons I think!! :D

    Aww thank you :)

    Yeah it was the e-fag that did for me last time - it totally messed up my programming and made me feel liek a smoker, but just kidding myself if that makes sense?

    Know I drove poor Kat up the wall with it but it really did my head in!!

    Awesome :D

    Rooting for you, Gemma!

    You will be fine today.

    Thanks Steve :D :D

    Flipping hope so!!

    Just had my first "moment" - thought "right I'll have a fag now" - er no you won't Gem no way!! Just an automatic thing, not because I wanted one

    Got every bit of myself crossed for you,some quite painfully :D

    I know you can do it,you know you can do it,there is nothing but a grey deathly smelly future with smoking so turn away from that forever and embrace the clean natural fresh air that God intended for you :p

    If you feel you are craving badly lean on us.

    Game on ;)

    Thanks Max :)

    I am craving a bit now but it's bearable - am up one minute and craving the next, is a bit odd but it'll pass.

  • Grrrrrrr it would be fab if I could stop biting my tongue!! :eek::mad::eek::mad::eek::mad:

  • Don't say that, you'll just make a lateral move to biting the inside of your cheek!:eek::D

    NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

    *is chomping Nicorette furiously*

  • And breathe!

    Large glass of cold water/water bottle to hand? Sip slowly for a few minutes, taking your time and regulating your breathing. Visualise the stinky little oik throwing a toddler tantrum, walk up to him, put your finger to your lips and say "ssssssssssssssssssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh". He will be so gobsmacked he won't know what to say!

    *Breathes*

    *Smokes post it note*

    Lol at least that unknotted my tummy!!

    *coughs and wonders if that's her normal smoker's cough or "the" cough starting*

  • Really feeling it now, and my chest feels odd - grrrr

  • Come on Gemma, hang in there petal.

    You CAN do this and you ARE doing this. You are so much stronger than a plant.

    Sending you hugs sweetheart

    Molly x

  • Come on Gemma, hang in there petal.

    You CAN do this and you ARE doing this. You are so much stronger than a plant.

    Sending you hugs sweetheart

    Molly x

    Thanks hun :)

    It's stupid, really stupid 'cos for at least the last week I haven't even enjoyed smoking - it's been a sort of natural Champix feeling but hey, it's my addiction talking!!

    I won't smoke today, apart from anything else I haven't got any fags and am too proud to beg!!

    ((hugs)) back xx

    Gem try not to think about it , picture me sat night with patch on my forehead.

    This is not a nicotine thing this is your mind. The chest is just saying thank you

    for not putting smoke in it xx

    LOL!! That is funny!!

    Yeah it's the mental thing, smoking as much as i did is going to leave a hole!!

    xx

  • Thanks hun :)

    I won't smoke today, apart from anything else I haven't got any fags and am too proud to beg!!

    ((hugs)) back xx

    That's the way to do it Gemma, one day at a time. Ten minutes at a time if need be. Whatever it takes is fair game as far as I'm concerned. Heck, when I first quit I had to tell myself every 90 seconds I was that bad! I just read and read and read old posts on here, literally hundreds of them. Oh, and I got babysat by my workmates as well which was a little embarrassing but hey, any port in a storm and all that :)

    Keep going Gemma, and just imagine how proud you're going to be when you've got through 24 hours. I'm proud of you already :)

  • smoking as much as i did is going to leave a hole!!

    xx

    The only hole smoking left you with is in your bank account.

    It doesn't matter how you get through today, as long as you do.

    Edit: What Molly said ^^ :)

  • Yeah!!! :D :) :D :) :D You GO Gemma-Lou!!!!

    You know you have everyones full support.

    You CAN do this

    You WILL do this

    In fact, you're now an ex-smoker, isn't that a great thing to be able to say.

  • That's the way to do it Gemma, one day at a time. Ten minutes at a time if need be. Whatever it takes is fair game as far as I'm concerned. Heck, when I first quit I had to tell myself every 90 seconds I was that bad! I just read and read and read old posts on here, literally hundreds of them. Oh, and I got babysat by my workmates as well which was a little embarrassing but hey, any port in a storm and all that :)

    Keep going Gemma, and just imagine how proud you're going to be when you've got through 24 hours. I'm proud of you already :)

    Thanks hun, I will :)

    Like you say, it's just 10 mins at a time and they'll soon add up!!

    Whatever it takes!!

    Do hope it gets easier soon though!!

    The only hole smoking left you with is in your bank account.

    It doesn't matter how you get through today, as long as you do.

    Edit: What Molly said ^^ :)

    Oooh yeah, pack and a half of fags a day is over £12 so that's a huge hole!!

    It feels like something's missing though but that'll pass.

  • Yeah!!! :D :) :D :) :D You GO Gemma-Lou!!!!

    You know you have everyones full support.

    You CAN do this

    You WILL do this

    In fact, you're now an ex-smoker, isn't that a great thing to be able to say.

    YAY!!

    Thankyou :D :D

    And yes I am an ex smoker now!! Woooooo

  • Step away from the tea caddy GL....;)

    Really great to see you here and on your quit, grab it and run with it :)

  • Step away from the tea caddy GL....;)

    Really great to see you here and on your quit, grab it and run with it :)

    LOL I'm not going to smoke any tea!!

    Thanks Isolde, I'll do my best :)

  • :D:D:D I am so happy you are back on the wagon - just keep taking those baby steps, one day at a time and you will be in control in not time :D:D:D

  • :D:D:D I am so happy you are back on the wagon - just keep taking those baby steps, one day at a time and you will be in control in not time :D:D:D

    Thanks hun :)

    I hope so 'cos it's not fun at the mo

  • I am sending positive vibes sherv.net/cm/emoticons/cats...

  • Wooo thanks hun :)

    I will do this, wish I could curl up and sleep for a week though, am flipping exhausted too.

    I do not like smoking

    I do not need to smoke

    I will not smoke

    I will spend £12 on something nice later

  • No, it's not fun hon, we know it isn't. Hold on petal, it IS going to get easier, just hang in there xxx

    It will!!

    If it didn't then nobody would ever quit would they?

    Am feeling a bit better now, I'm very up and down at the mo but hey, it is Day One!!

    xxx

  • 44,000+ seconds quit...and counting! :)

  • WOW Steve, that sounds a looooong time :D

    I have an extra hour and a half to live - already!!

    *sucks on post it note*

  • Woo! Keep going! You'll start to feel great soon :D

  • Gemma, you're doing great.

    I fell off the wagon loads of time in my life, but this is my FINAL quit, and your FINAL quit. I just know it xx

  • Woo! Keep going! You'll start to feel great soon :D

    YAY!!

    I will feel great, it's just like a caterpillar turning into a butterfly, a bit ropey at the time :p

    Gemma, you're doing great.

    I fell off the wagon loads of time in my life, but this is my FINAL quit, and your FINAL quit. I just know it xx

    Thanks :D

    We will *both* do this and we will be fine!! xx

  • I wanna go home and curl up, sooooo tired now and craving again.

    Still I had a good couple of not craving hours earlier!!

  • Yay, come on Gemma you can do this :D

    I kept my the last fag I smoked in the ashtray for weeks and weeks, it stank :eek:and every time I had a crave I would look at that and it helped :D

  • And a round of applause for our two Gemma's.

    Huge pats on the back, both of you. Just think, once today is finished, and it nearly is, you'll never have to do it again. I'll drink to that :D

    I'm proud of you Gemma Lou, enjoy your duvet :)

  • Yay, come on Gemma you can do this :D

    I kept my the last fag I smoked in the ashtray for weeks and weeks, it stank :eek:and every time I had a crave I would look at that and it helped :D

    Ooh isn't it foul?

    I've still got my portable ashtray pouch thingy, and an ice cream tub in my Leper's Corner at home with a load of my fag ends in soooo I can keep a selection in a jar or something to sniff!!

    I do *not* want to smell like that!!

    Not long now sweetheart, you've done sooooooooo well, you can hide under the duvet soon xxx

    Thank flip for that!!

    Coing to curl up under my lovely pink blanket with my PJ's and dressing gown on, and have a glass of wine (even if it makes me crave I won't be able to do anything about it)

    I've earned it for getting through the day without smoking or killing anyone :D

    xxx

  • And a round of applause for our two Gemma's.

    Huge pats on the back, both of you. Just think, once today is finished, and it nearly is, you'll never have to do it again. I'll drink to that :D

    I'm proud of you Gemma Lou, enjoy your duvet :)

    Aww thanks hun :D :D

    Gemmas are fab of course ;)

    YAY for no more day 1's

    Ooh and ick, I've got the smell of smoke up my nose :confused:

    I now have an extra hour and 50 mins to live

  • Well I'm curled up in the warm, haven't killed anyone and haven't smoked!!

    Got some symptoms kicking in now, my toes are sore like last time and are starting to feel warm and when I breathe in deeply or cough am sure I can feel stuff moving in my lungs o.O

    Oh and I have a cough starting up, and an irritating smell of smoke in my nose again

  • You're hanging in there like a goodun Gemma. Stay snuggled and watch tv and post on here :)

  • Pleased to see this Gemma:D Best wishes for your quit, you have loads of support here :) One day at a time, you can do this.xxx

  • Thanks hun, that's the plan!! Curled up in the warm and no nipping out for a fag - I so won't miss that!!

  • Good luck, you can do it;)

  • Good luck, you can do it;)

    Thank you :) so can you!!

    We'll both be smoke free from now on :D

  • I'm so pleased for you Gemma :D well done you on your day one, I knew you wouldn't be far behind me :)

    Thank you :)

    Not going to lie I feel terrible, just awful :(

  • Gemma, you are doing SO well. You maybe can't see it right now...it's been an emotional day...but we CAN :D

    "There are those who dream and wish and there are those who dream and work."

    -- Someone Wise

    Which ones do you think succeed?

    There are people all around us HERE, Gemstone...winning this battle. Every single day.

    YOU CAN TOO. WE BOTH CAN.

    I look up to you as a total INSPIRATION. Because YOU HAVE done the hard yards before. This time they'll be easier. Starting tomorrow. And getting even easier each day after that.

    You've broken day one. Be proud of yourself. The rest of us are!!

    And look FORWARD to day two.

    You're a star, Gemma.

    Now...go to bed :)

  • Go on Gemma you can do this! You have before and you will again. You know all the tricks of the trade. Get yourself through the first 30 days by any way possible. Krispy Kreme helps ALOT :D

    Think you will never have to feel like this ever again if you just do it once. I have faith in you hun xxx

  • Gemma, you are doing SO well. You maybe can't see it right now...it's been an emotional day...but we CAN :D

    "There are those who dream and wish and there are those who dream and work."

    -- Someone Wise

    Which ones do you think succeed?

    There are people all around us HERE, Gemstone...winning this battle. Every single day.

    YOU CAN TOO. WE BOTH CAN.

    I look up to you as a total INSPIRATION. Because YOU HAVE done the hard yards before. This time they'll be easier. Starting tomorrow. And getting even easier each day after that.

    You've broken day one. Be proud of yourself. The rest of us are!!

    And look FORWARD to day two.

    You're a star, Gemma.

    Now...go to bed :)

    Aww thankyou :)

    It will get better, it has to!!

  • Go on Gemma you can do this! You have before and you will again. You know all the tricks of the trade. Get yourself through the first 30 days by any way possible. Krispy Kreme helps ALOT :D

    Think you will never have to feel like this ever again if you just do it once. I have faith in you hun xxx

    Aww thanks :)

    I'll do my best, last time I was on the ceiling for the first week, and this is totally different, but yes I'll try :) xx

  • Oh noooooo :( it will get better, it has too :) x

    Thanks hun, I do feel a bit better this evening crave wise but wow it feels like I've got flu!!

    Am going to sleep for hours!!

    Feel more than a bit pathetic, but hey going from heavy smoker to nonsmoker is going to be a shock to my system!!

    How's you? x

  • Gemma that is 2 days in the bag :p

    You will already have come across clothes of yours that smell MINGING :eek:

    You are also well rid of much of the poison that was swishing around inside you,poison you kept totting up on,for some crazy masochistic reason :mad:

    You are a delicate pretty young lady with a vivacious wit,you smell lovely now,you have some extra cash in your purse,and whatever physical ailments are there today will not be around for long as they are symptomatic only of your body,re-adjusting to life after poison.;)

    Also Gemma cos there will be no ECig this time you will be free of Nicotine after patches etc so this will feel much better and much different to when you were puffing away furiously on the Ecig xx :p

    Yep, don't think I'll be awake much longer now :eek: so it's nearly day 3!!

    Um, my favourite coat - the one I told you about - the right side of it pongs, the one I wear most days smells totally faggy (or it did when I locked it in my car and gave mum the keys) my favourite bag (leopard print of course :p) stinks like the ashtray I carried in it so yeah you're right there!!

    My lungs haven't been treated to (according to my app) 475mg of tar - amazed I didn't drown :eek: and I have not smoked 53 fags - might be a bit skewed 'cos I quit before bedtime but hey. Ooh and i'm £22 better off!!

    Awww and thanks!! *blushes* Know this is just a temporary thing and when it's done I'll feel fab all the time!!

    Lol I'm a total girly girl and there's no way smoking really fits with that is there?

    Got the course of patches to get through, then I'll be totally free of Nic!! xx

  • Well I'm pretty much caught up, so I just wanted to say Happy Day Two! :) I hope you're feeling very proud and are looking forward to your third day as a non-smoker. Stay strong hun, you're doing great :) xxx

  • Well I'm pretty much caught up, so I just wanted to say Happy Day Two! :) I hope you're feeling very proud and are looking forward to your third day as a non-smoker. Stay strong hun, you're doing great :) xxx

    Thanks hun :)

    I'm kind of shocked how hard it's hit me physically, think that's disctacted me a bit from the craves if anything but still no fags so that's great!!

    xxx

  • woohooooooo good see to see you on the wagon gem

    good luck hun :D

  • woohooooooo good see to see you on the wagon gem

    good luck hun :D

    Aww thanks Princess, lovely to see you again :D

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