I'm putting this thread on day one in the hope I can influence and help all you guys who are just starting and wonder if you will ever get there.
Most people on here will know what I've gone through in the last few weeks but I'm not feeling sorry for myself, I have dealt with it all head on. The first thing was I was being accused of was fraud, I have since proved it not to be true but it worried me. Then my sister died and I have just came back from travelling down to Lancashire for the funeral.
Next Monday I will have been stopped smoking for 3 months and entering my fourth month. It has not been easy and it has been made harder with the things that have been thrown at me during my quit. I even lost around £2,000 in earnings because of bad weather.
When I went south for the funeral I was in my nephews house and him, his wife and my other sister were all smoking, I was standing next to them and did not want to smoke. I even stood outside the hotel at the reception with people smoking and it did not bother me. One guy when he found out I had stopped pleaded with me and I mean pleaded with me to tell him how I did it because he really wanted to stop but doesn't think he can.
I still have this feeling that something is missing and I don't crave but feel if I were to smoke the feeling of something missing would go away. But now it is so easy to control so I'm happy about stopping smoking. I took great delight when I was offered a cigarette at the hotel and answered "No thanks I don't smoke"
Like the guy who pleaded with me you all want to stop smoking or you would not be here. Well I'm telling you as a person who was like that guy and thought I could not stop smoking you can. Please believe me you can we all can, it is hard and needs determination, will power and to know you are getting rid of something you dont want.
You are not giving something up you are getting rid of something you don't want. If I can do it so can you.