Lung cancer got the better of my mammy, she passed away on Monday 3rd June so my previous motivation was short lived
Me going back to smoking hasn't changed anything but at the time it was the first thing I wanted, how after watching mum struggle for her breathe I don't know :mad:
I kept smoking over the next week we'll almost 2 now using the excuse today's not the day but that's just a pathetic excuse!
I went to visit my aunt today who was very close to my mum, she's also a smoker. Her first words were are you still smoking to which I replied yes, her next words were remember what your mammy told you. When mum was ill she asked me to stop smoking so I didn't end up like her. I found it really strange my aunt said this to me as normally she'd be the kind of person to say "have a wee smoke, it will help you" therefore I'm seeing this as a kick up the a** from my mammy telling me to catch myself on!
I am now setting Monday 17th June as my quit day, I can't keep using my feelings as an excuse as cancer doesn't hold out any cigarette could start the trigger and the whole it won't happen to me is rubbish!
I have to do this for my son, myself and my mammy and daddy. I'm 28 years old with both parents passed away, I really don't want my son to feel the loneness I'm feeling.
Please Mammy help me make this quit be the one!!