It is 2 weeks tonight. I haven't posted for a while because I didn't really need to and I didn't want to be reminded of smoking by writing and reading about it... but I am very proud to say that I haven't touched a cigarette for two whole weeks , and in that time i have faced some of my classic "weak times" - going out, alcohol, a massive event i was organising at work, arguments, stress etc.
It feels great. I like myself for doing this. I stopped the Champix on Day 7 because it was not agreeing with me. I found myself getting very emotional and aggressive after just a couple of glasses of wine as well as feeling a bit paranoid. I have never taken any anti-depressants or even a sleeping tablet before so I got freaked out by what might be happening in my brain.
I still want a smoke. I really want one now. In the evening with wine... I don't miss the daytime ones at all but I just have to get through the few minutes of craving in the evenings.
I do think that the first ten days it really changed my personality as I dealt with my decision physically and psychologically. Ask my other half! I feel myself again now though.
So happy with this decision. Thank you so much for helping in the first few days and , just knowing I can reach out to you if I need to makes a big difference..