As some of you are aware, I currently am not using patches as I had a bad reaction and am waiting for my GP to get another brand in (hopefully tomorrow)..............So, I have had a day with just my lozenges.
Everything was going well, took half an hour to find a parking space at the hospital for my pre-op appointment.........hey, no stress. Was 15 minutes late for my appointment, no stress. Before I would have probably smoked at least 3 cigs whilst driving round and panicing about being late.
I was extremely proud of myself.............HOWEVER...................
had my pre-op appointment and came out as scared as hell and all I could think was I NEED A FAG! :eek:
I drove to see OH at work (as some of you know, he smokes) on my way there I had a moment where I realised that having a smoke wasnt actually going to make me less terrified and if anything, I would have to face my children, sister, mother and all you fabulous peeps on here and say that I had given in to the little b*&^ard...................NO WAY was I going to do that. Had a coffee with OH, he smoked in front of me and I can honestly say I REALLY didnt want one
That is my waffle over, will get through the rest of today because I dont have to go out anywhere and my boys would not let me leave the house with any money if I wanted to.
Onwards and Upwards..........bring on day 19