I've failed to quit many times and even the best of us have broke our quit in times of
want...curiosity..comfort....wonder...stress..reminders...triggers.....and of miss. Some of us keep on a quit sucessfully. Some just give up and give in completely until on there dying day they still want that last cigarette.
Some keep trying on that journey for freedom until one day they have stored & learned enough for it to happen. I am not sad or ashamed what i set out to achieve almost 4 years ago when i joined this forum because with every fail I get stronger & learn...Some attempts are half hearted...perhaps a bit cocky with an obvious fail. Some have had my heart & soul right in it ....left me wondering what went wrong....but nothing did actually go wrong.....the dissapointment turned into a positive to take time to think about the time I haven't smoked & take pride in that fact... I think now that too much energy focused on a quit has led to my failure personally. I want my quit to be something that runs along side my life...not something that is my life.
Some of you know me...some of you dont. I look on my quit journey as something to be proud of. I have learned a lot of things about the way in which to go about it. Is it really the end of my journey just because I have been attempting to quit smoking for quite some time & should know better? or is it the beginning of myself changing from the person i was 4 years ago ..... when i didnt think a day would be possible without cigarettes.
The possibilities are now endless for me.
This in no way should be read as a post to say its okay to smoke why quit.. of course it isn't....... It is just my own view without reason ..... to simply say ....that if you find yourself failing in your quit...... always remember it isn't always about getting it right first time.
Thanks for listening