Ok so, I've clocked over to Day 4 but it's night here so I'll tell you of Day 3.
Some of you who have been following Tal's Journeybook knew that I was a bit worried aboutgoing to Melbourne because my mum, eldest sister and her hubby all smoke. When I got here, I was told that they were attempting to quit. Today I went over there and it was my beautiful little neice's 2nd birthday. She's so zzzzzz cute!
Side note: My sister got married to a great guy who I really liked. It wasn't until 2 YEARS after they got married that I realised that his sister was the girl that had been the bane of my existence at secondary school, the one who bullied me, locked me in the toilet stall (on multiple occassions) and who punched me in the face.
So as a rule, we are courteous to each other, but only for the sake of our retrospective siblings.
So of course, she comes over. My neice sees her a lot more than me, and so when given any of her gifts, runs over to her other aunt to open her presents. All I wanted to see was the excitement in her eyes as she unwrapped her gifts but all my mum (her nanna), her father, and myself could see was her back and even my sister had trouble and could only get profile shots as she opened her presents.
I think I would have felt pretty much the same if this were to occur with anyone but because I have a deep-seated dislike for this person it just scratched at me even more.
Added onto this my sister and her hubby have not given up smoking. I could only bear to go outside with them twice while they smoked, and the second time I so nearly asked for a smoked that I clenched my teeth and dug my nails into the metal of the chair.
I think it was a particularly bad craving because I had spent all day dealing with the "other aunt", and then I did an entire assignment (during which I would normally smoke an entire deck of smokes and drink about 5 coffees), and then went outside with mum and sister to relax, where I would also normally smoke. It was when I was outside that it was the hardest because the smoke kept blowing toward me, and then someone didn't put their's out properly so I had a steady stream of burning tobacco and the melting butt smell drifting directly into my face.
I did okay though. I encouraged mum to go home early by offering to buy pizza on the way home (she's not been eating so I saw this as a way to force her to eat something, anything). After having dinner I took my Golden for a very long walk around about a 6 block radius... At 11:30pm, It was so quite and such a lovely night it was hard to feel tense or crave a cigarette when you've got all that freshness wafting around you and a happy pup at your side.
Also, I'm not longer getting sick from the champix which is awesome.
My lungs are starting to try to clear, I'm already starting to cough up grey stuff and it wont be long till I start coughing up the pure black icky stuff. Which, while gross, is to me a great sign!