Five days ago i rolled out of bed and headed out on the veranda and lit up my first fag for the day as i did every other morning. Except this particular morning i took 2 drags and put it out in disgust, after coughing till almost being sick. This was the beginning of the journey i am now on. I have no idea where it will take me, though i am learning not to worry about where that might be, and concentrate on where it is taking me today.
After my very first post here today, it was made very clear to me that i should read read read and get as much info to understand what i need and strategies to cope and why i might be behaving as i do while going through withdrawals. So this afternoon i have done as advised.
Me, i have chosen the cold turkey route. The evenings seem to be the worst for me, especially after the evening meal. My husband and i would have our own time together smoking and discussing our days out the back away from the kids. Now he goes outside to smoke and i headed here tonight. It is looking like you might all have to put up with me in the evenings in the future.
My actual reasons for quitting are as follows.
Decline in my health, have had an awful cough since Feb that i couldn't shift. Wheezing and general lethargy.
I have 3 of the most beautiful kids. I want to be here and watch their achievements, accomplishments, to see them marry and to watch my Grand kids grow up. I do not want an addiction to take that away.
I want to grow old with my Husband.
I do not wish to smell like an ash tray anymore.
I do not want to feel like an outcast when with my Non smoker friends and family.
I will not waste any more money. It really is money up in smoke.
I have watched my own father at 43 years of age have 3 strokes and 2 rounds of emergency open heart surgery all caused through heavy smoking. This has left him completely paralyzed down the left side of his body and led to a marriage breakdown. I do not want this to happen to me.
I have promised myself to give this a red hot go. The very bestest attempt i can possibly give.
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I have watched my own father at 43 years of age have 3 strokes and 2 rounds of emergency open heart surgery all caused through heavy smoking. This has left him completely paralyzed down the left side of his body and led to a marriage breakdown. I do not want this to happen to me.
Welcome to the forum. Thank you for telling us your reasons for quitting. It has been tough for you to witness all of this and we are glad that you are starting your quit journey.
We are all here for you so when things get bad, log on and talk to somebody.
Welcome to the forum. Thank you for telling us your reasons for quitting. It has been tough for you to witness all of this and we are glad that you are starting your quit journey.
We are all here for you so when things get bad, log on and talk to somebody.
NSD
Thank you for the welcome
Amazing it took me so long to realize how destructive smoking can be even though the consequences were in front of my face day in day out. My father can barely manage to get himself to the bathroom or to the letterbox some days, this just goes to show you what a hold Nicotine has on me. And that makes me ashamed of myself for not being stranger sooner.
The lovely MAH put me onto some info re anger and this has really given me something to think about. Thank you.
It is coming up to the end of day 6 as i write this and what a day it has been. This decision really is the best thing for my children though i don't think they agree right now as they are getting "Cranky Mummy". I have really had the moodies today and the craves have been more often than previous days but not as severe. It has been a strange day. I have been snacking a fair bit today but right now i think what the hell!! It is day 6 ......or should it be called "666" with that devil voice whispering in my ear all day!
My husband has gone to get take away for tea and then i will be falling into a nice warm bath for some quiet me time.
So thank you for your support and for allowing me to post my thoughts here.
As Dory says "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming"
Welcome to our club that is full of brill people who will just love to talk and help you. I truly believe that I have now stopped smoking, but I done it at 55 years of age and after my three children have grown up and I cannot help thinking of the holidays and things that I could not give my children so that I could continue smoking. A slight health scare help me to give up CT (O.K NOW). The main point of my message is to say that I am not sure that I could have stopped if I did not have the help,support,and advise of the members of this site, so go girl and we will watch your progress as you leave they fags behind, talk to us regularly.
Hi Purple Girl, I read your thread and hope I am not too late to post on it as it was a couple of days ago, you touched my heart with your explanation as to why you need to quit, it can’t be easy for you with other OH still puffing but maybe seeing you quit might make him realise that now is the time, we all think at some point I will do it tomorrow or even the next day but there is not always a tomorrow for everyone, you go for it now girl and I hope not just for your sake but for your lovely family that you find the strength to succeed, and I bet your dad is glad to see you are going for it as I’m sure he doesn’t want to see you go through the awful time he has had to go through to make him realise how bad smoking is for everyone.
Firstly i must apologize for being absent and not too supportive over the past few days but i am experiencing some internet connection issues that should be rectified by beginning of August.
Dannyboy, WELL DONE!! It is a huge thing to quit after 35 years. I think that is just sensational! Don't look back at what you could have done but concentrate on what you are now achieving. Thanks for commenting and i look forward to chatting. I am already finding great support here as you mentioned.
Jamanjie, Hi and it is never too late to comment. Yes it is hard with hubby still smoking but to be honest it is not as bad as i thought. Hopefully he will do what you said and realise one day just how bad it is.
Well guys, like i said i have had some internet probs so should be sorted soon. Today is my sons 17th birthday. I cannot believe he is 17 already! Time flies by so fast and for the majority of his life, i have been a smoker. Not any more thank goodness. I can proudly say i have just completed my 10th day today with little problem. Yesterday was an awful day for cravings but today was fantastic. I have been heading to the gym to release my frustration on the bike and treadmill and also took myself off to a body balance class which is a mix of yoga, Thai chi and meditation. This seems to really be up my alley and helping in many ways. It is challenging but i know it is for my own good.
I had some anger issues yesterday, it seemed i was back on the old crave wave which threw me off at anxious alley and that then spat me out into anger street and the cycle continued all day till last night. I rewarded myself at the end of yesterday with a very yummy cocktail called a Toblerone. I figured why the hell not! And I have to tell you all it was a sensational cocktail, but by goodness, i earnt it yesterday.
So right now i am in a relatively happy place, exercising, drinking heaps of water (and the occasional cocktail :D) moisturising and generally spoiling myself just a little because i am so proud of me. I am also quietly proud of my hubby who has cut down considerably over the past week. I am hoping he is considering giving up. But i have made it clear it is his decision to smoke as it is mine to quit and whatever he does i love him regardless.
So now i have bent your ears and probably made you fall asleep with boredom after reading my long post i must be off. Keep up the hard work quitting everyone. I hope you are all well and finding ways to cope. Have faith in yourself and each other and i know we can all do this together.
Firstly i must apologize for being absent and not too supportive over the past few days but i am experiencing some internet connection issues that should be rectified by beginning of August.
Dannyboy, WELL DONE!! It is a huge thing to quit after 35 years. I think that is just sensational! Don't look back at what you could have done but concentrate on what you are now achieving. Thanks for commenting and i look forward to chatting. I am already finding great support here as you mentioned.
Jamanjie, Hi and it is never too late to comment. Yes it is hard with hubby still smoking but to be honest it is not as bad as i thought. Hopefully he will do what you said and realise one day just how bad it is.
Well guys, like i said i have had some internet probs so should be sorted soon. Today is my sons 17th birthday. I cannot believe he is 17 already! Time flies by so fast and for the majority of his life, i have been a smoker. Not any more thank goodness. I can proudly say i have just completed my 10th day today with little problem. Yesterday was an awful day for cravings but today was fantastic. I have been heading to the gym to release my frustration on the bike and treadmill and also took myself off to a body balance class which is a mix of yoga, Thai chi and meditation. This seems to really be up my alley and helping in many ways. It is challenging but i know it is for my own good.
I had some anger issues yesterday, it seemed i was back on the old crave wave which threw me off at anxious alley and that then spat me out into anger street and the cycle continued all day till last night. I rewarded myself at the end of yesterday with a very yummy cocktail called a Toblerone. I figured why the hell not! And I have to tell you all it was a sensational cocktail, but by goodness, i earnt it yesterday.
So right now i am in a relatively happy place, exercising, drinking heaps of water (and the occasional cocktail :D) moisturising and generally spoiling myself just a little because i am so proud of me. I am also quietly proud of my hubby who has cut down considerably over the past week. I am hoping he is considering giving up. But i have made it clear it is his decision to smoke as it is mine to quit and whatever he does i love him regardless.
So now i have bent your ears and probably made you fall asleep with boredom after reading my long post i must be off. Keep up the hard work quitting everyone. I hope you are all well and finding ways to cope. Have faith in yourself and each other and i know we can all do this together.
Catch you all soon. xxoo
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