The Good The Bad & The Ugly Day 4

Hi all

Forgive me for my lengthy off loads. It helps me get through this. I'm also gonna take this stuff to my cessation group. My memory isn't too good just now and when the smoking nurse says, "So, Andrew...how are you getting on"? 12 other quitters turn their eyes to me and it happens...performance anxiety lol.

I was on an overnight at work last night so today is really Day 3 & 4. A few flashback urges to smoke which are quite scarey to be honest but nothing to report home about really.

It's getting really hard coping with the changes in my mental health. Also having some fairly noticeable and unpleasant physical effects.

Mental:

Negative stuff:

I am coping with stress but feeling quite angry and aggressive inside when others expect me to give them answers to what I see as relatively straight forward problem solving.

Less ability to tolerate those little things about other people that bug me.

Having senior moments e.g. wrote my own name at the top of a file note I write for the service users I support, also picking up other peoples coffee and drinking it, taking folders to the toilet in the office and leaving them there, and losing everything, lol.

Feeling a bit speedy and manic at times, lots of trouble sleeping, imagining arguing with people, telling my boss how it's going to be and giving up my job hehe. Identity crisis now I don't smoke...who am I? Insecurities and power tripping in my dreams which are soooooo weird and wonderful and actually quite exhausting and emotionally mixed up. Makes a mental note to discuss this with therapist :rolleyes:

Postivie Stuff:

I don't smoke.

I might live longer.

I might not get horrid, painful diseases associated with smoking.

I don't rely on smoking to make me mentally and emotionally strong.

I don't use smoking to deal with stress at work now.

I have no smoking stress breaks = getting more work completed quicker = happy boss.

I don't feel like an outcast, social reject at work. Empowered.

I think my clarity of thought is sharper.

I strangely feel calmer but at the same time feel anxious.

I will never go through this withdrawal pain again in my life!

Physical

Negative stuff:

My appetite has gone from having the munchies to can't stomach the sight of a main course meal. Can only snack. Had to force breakfast down my neck this morning as I was wrenching after taking my Champix on an empty stomach. Word of advice there to anyone thinking about Champix. Take it after you have eaten!

Still getting aches and pains like I got the cold. The pain is too sore and distracting without regular pain killers.

Sneezing a lot? Especially when I wake in the morning. Nose running.

The muck in my chest is starting to clear. I am not a very attractive sight in the morning just now :D

Look like I have a hangover in the morning but I haven't been boozing?

Headaches, nausea and wrenching, especially when exposed to passive smoke. Nausea first thing in the morning worse.

I still have a horrid taste like ashtray mouth on my tongue especially in the morning?

I can smell if other people have poor personal hygiene. Buses stink.

I look pregnant.

Positive stuff

Maybe I am pregnant with an artificial Champix test baby lol

The world is full of lovely smells.

Food tastes real good when I'm not feeling sick.

My skin already looks brighter on my face.

My eyes are already whiter, less blood shot.

No smelly yellow index finger.

Breathe easier through the night.

Music sounds ace, head rushes, think that might be the Champix lol.

Slight nausea will stop me getting a fatter gut during quit. Mental note. Must remember to buy vitamin supplements today.

Well folks, that's my wierd 'n' wonderful day 4 'n' I'm off out to spend money as a treat for not smoking. Not that I ever needed an excuse lol.

Chillax everyone and stay quit.

Andrew

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  • Hi Xande

    Personally you sound quite well ballanced for some one quitting smoking, well as well ballanced as I am which might under heavy scrutiny be not very, I hope that you passive smoking is now getting less as it wouldnt be good to keep being contaminated with others baddy stuff.

    Have to to be possitive as you know so keep focused and eventualy you will find it so much easier.

    Health wise you will be feeling some of the benefits now as well xx

  • Hi Andrew,

    Thanks for your post & well done for getting to day 3/4 :D

    Maybe I am pregnant with an artificial Champix test baby lol

    That really made me laugh so thank you ;)

    Just remember that the list of negatives will get shorter, things will improve & go away & at the same time that positives list will grow bigger & stronger. Much like us quitters really ;)

    Gaynor

  • Thanks folks

    @ Gaynor, The only bit of my body getting fat is my belly :eek: Rest of my body is very slim. I swear to the big man/woman above I look pregnant lol. Even walking like one, sore back n all that. Find myself walking round Mothercare not knowing how I got there. Now I am just being stoopid :D

    It's day 5 for me. Felt terrible today, didn't get up till 4pm, then had the biggest fry up ever. Mmmmmmm. Made with low fat sunflower oil of course ;)

    ChillaxaSunday

    Andrew

  • A great post xandrewx

    day 5 is brilliant, hope u are having a chill out sunday :) .......your almost a week....well done :)

  • Hi Andrew, crazy stuff all this quitting business i tell you! Worth it though. :) Just wanted to say well done and have you ever thought about doing a 12 step programme? the best and most reliable therapy there is. I know i've done one and i'm a therapist lol.

    Good luck and keep going ooh and hope the days shopping went well.

  • Hi Andrew,

    Just wanted to say hi. Well done and congats on quitting. I had a little giggle at the fact you mentioned seniors moments. I am having them too. Lets just say the family were lucky to eventually get their hamburgers i cooked for tea tonight. I forgot where the tomato's were kept (in the Crisper! ) and i put the mince paddies in the sink instead of the fry pan.

    Here's to those senior moments and giving birth to Champix test bubbas!!

  • Welcome to our club

    Hi all

    Forgive me for my lengthy off loads. It helps me get through this. I'm also gonna take this stuff to my cessation group. My memory isn't too good just now and when the smoking nurse says, "So, Andrew...how are you getting on"? 12 other quitters turn their eyes to me and it happens...performance anxiety lol.

    I was on an overnight at work last night so today is really Day 3 & 4. A few flashback urges to smoke which are quite scarey to be honest but nothing to report home about really.

    It's getting really hard coping with the changes in my mental health. Also having some fairly noticeable and unpleasant physical effects.

    Andrew

    Hi Andrew,

    And well done for giving up the fags and for finding this site oh! and for such an interesting post. I am just over the Forth Road Bridge from you in the Kingdom of Fife so I feel you are very close, but you will find that it does not matter where you live in this world you are now part of our wee club.Now we all want regular reports (day by day) of how you are doing and believe me if I can stop smoking anyone can. We all know how hard it is and that every day brings another chalenge but believe the people on this site when we say that it gets easier as the time goes on, and if you have feelings that you don't understand just ask the many new friends on this site, who will use there quit experience to try and help you. But well done for 5 days so far and don't let yourself down.

    Dannyboy

    Stopped: 18th December 09, after 35 years due to slight health scare (o.k. now).

    How: CT (COLD TURKEY)

    Age: 55

  • Hi Andrew,

    Just wanted to say hi. Well done and congats on quitting. I had a little giggle at the fact you mentioned seniors moments. I am having them too. Lets just say the family were lucky to eventually get their hamburgers i cooked for tea tonight. I forgot where the tomato's were kept (in the Crisper! ) and i put the mince paddies in the sink instead of the fry pan.

    Here's to those senior moments and giving birth to Champix test bubbas!!

    Hehehehehehe :D I think reading this has made my day. It's a bit frightening but when you talk about it it's actually quite funny ;)

    Somebody has to steal that line for their signature "Here's to those senior moments and giving birth to Champix test bubbas!!" :D

    xx@purple

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