OK guys, I 'm at the stage of serious breakdown, I can't take it anymore!
At home it's hell, at work it's absolutely hell, my life is hell.
I am sorry for disappointing all of you that have hold my hand for the past weeks...but I just can't do it any more. I don't like my life, but I don't have the strength to change it...I lose! I won't be posting for a while until I manage to pick up the bits left and get on with my life again. I realize this is not just about smoking, it's my life, there's no space for me in this stupid life I am living.
For all of you that are in the good path, keep it going...I am very proud of all of you! Many thanks for all of your support for the last few weeks.
I wasn't able to handle the stress yesterday and had 2 cigarretes and this morning after a shouting session I had another one. Although I would not reset my count for 1 puff, this is 3 already and I can't tell that I will be able to stop myself now.
I fail nick wins.