I've posted before about having to come off Champix due to bad side effects. Well, today I slipped in quit glorious style and 6 roll ups later I've fallen off the wagon but I'm getting back on it now. I'm was attempting to cold turkey it thinking that the nicotine was out of my body... turns out them damn receptors were active and just waiting for a sneaky gap in my defenses of a stressful day.
I'm not down heartened but I'm also not going to kid myself that I don't have to start at day one again - a smokes a smoke otherwise in my eyes a quit isn't a quit.
The good point is damn those 6 roll ups tasted fowl and reminded me not only by the smell but by the taste what a damn disgusting habit this is and how glad I will be when it goes finally from me. I forced myself to smoke the last one just as a 'see that's what you get for falling off the wagon isn't it disgusting'.
Tomorrow is day one patches are going to be the route I'm going and this time all tobacco is being thrown out of the house so there is no chance of a slip up even if it wasn't mine but my husband's 'stash'. He has not fallen off the wagon so I'm going to get resolute and get back on track with him.
I'm optimistic though at least the Champix 'fog' is lifting that has been effecting me and making me feel less than human for weeks now so I can face the quit with a clear mind which has been a huge issue for me throughout this.
I've also decided a different 'incentive' approach where each week the money I'm saving is going into a fund so I get an iPad once they are out in the UK - the geek inside me will like that incentive if nothing else