Hi, I had stopped for nearly 4 days and had to go out last night with work. Was fine, smoking ban helps, but a colleague who didnt know I had stopped invited me outside for a smoke. and like a fool i did.I did stop to rip off the patch first tho. It was the first of a few, all very enjoyable at the time. Today I have the usual self-loathing etc but have rallied and put the patch on. I have read lots of your posts and appreciate all the good advice. I am really down, this thing keeps beating me. i just cant be around smokers without ending up tempted. pathetic I know. Please help!!!!
i do really want to give up. I know it makes sense. Will try to be more positive in the future and not succumb. its such a pain this giving up thing, I am sick and tired of it. I would laugh but feel like crying!!
You all seem to be doing so well, i feel inferior and lacking in willpower in comparison. so well done ye all , keep being an inspiration. thanks for listening (the grim reaper is probably more cheerful then me today!!!)