I haven't posted much on here because I have been going through sheer hell and I didnt want to put anyone off trying to quit.
When I first started this quit (the umpteenth) I was feeling elated and very confident, I was so pleased with myself and I was actually starting to feel better.
Then came the bad news, I have found out that I have got stomach ulcers and possible gall stones, I have taken the medication for the stomach ulcers, huge amounts of antibiotics for a week, not nice. But the pain is incredible and I feel absolutely washed out.
My sleeping pattern is shot to bits, I am getting about 5 hours a night, and that is usually broken sleep. So Im waking or getting up in a morning feeling as though I haven't slept at all, and in fact I haven't really. Then my appetite is virtually nil too. I am finding it harder and harder to eat stuff.
I suffer from depression as it is, but I feel so under pressure from everything that is going off that I feel worse than I usually do.
I am so tempted to have a cig just to get my head right if nothing else, its driving me crazy and I just wonder if I should try again to stop once all the tummy problems have been sorted. Im not allowed to drink any alcohol any more, period. That would have helped to calm me down but thats out of the question.
I feel such a mess and I am all screwed up. Im so tense and anxious about the least little thing, its really getting me down. Can anyone suggest anything at all?? Please. I dont really want to start smoking again, but I cant carry on with my head in bits and feeling very very low. Perhaps I should forget this stop and get myself sorted out, then try again later. I am tearing my hair out with all the pain and tension.