I might as well come right out with it. Had 'blip' no 2 last night. Yes was drunk again and had 2/3 fags. Not full ones but still.
I am worried cos if I am totally honest it was too easy to just do it last night.
I now have very sore sinuses and am coughing a lot which is a shock after so little.
I really don't know what to say but as much as I don't want to smoke today I really feel like I am losing the momentum or focus and am really struggling to get it back.
I feel like i have let everyone on here down but didn't want to pretend it hadn't happened.
I really deserve a kick up the backside so feel free. Any recommendations of something to read/watch would be much appreciated too.
Why have I started feeling like i am missing something once I have a couple of vino's?
I know the best thing is not to drink and I wish I had listened to Jamangie two weeks ago.