Ok, deep breath here goes, I'm 46 and happy apart from my smoking (actually I probably drink too much as well).
Being a hostage
Dad died of oesophageal cancer
All my smoking Uncles and Aunts have died of lung, mouth or bladder cancer
It's b***** freezing outside!
Fitness (working skiing trip in 4 weeks is giving me a lot of incentive)
Letting those evil tobacco companies make a profit out of ruining people's lives.
Started smoking when I was about 12. Proper smoker by 15. Been to Alan Carr twice. Acupuncture, hypnosis (3 times), Zyban and support group (worked for 9 months until my Dad died - used that as an excuse to start again, stupid). Champix, stopped taking them as they stopped me enjoying a fag, stupid again. Every nicotine replacement product on the market.
My almost 80 year old mother is still on about 60 a day but I don't think she started until she was in her mid twenties and presumably took a break for her 6 pregnancies.
I stopped on 5th January 2009, slipped up and had a couple of roll ups and a couple of fags at a party on Saturday, nothing before or since.
There is nothing positive I can say about smoking and I am not an unintelligent woman so I really hate how this habit/addiction has made me continue to smoke. I also hate that I get really down if I think I can never have another cigarette. Why?? I should be rejoicing that I don't have to smoke again.
Am working my way through the enormous supply of NRT products I have accumulated over the years which are really helping but am probably overdoing them. Patches ran out yesterday so lozenges today, still have gum, a couple of empty inhalators, some microtabs and a vile nose spray which I only tried once.
Have never joined a forum before, seems to be working for you lot and I think I need to interact with people in the same boat as me.
Well done to you all, I'm really glad I found you