I am not proud of things I have done:
I smoked from a young age (about 9 and from 14 regularly) with parents who smoked. The whole family smoked including my 2 older brothers and I thought it was "cool".
I am very ashamed to admit that I have only once tried to quit before this year and that was just after my 3rd child was born. Even being pregnant never stopped me from smoking and I feel so so ashamed for being one of those mothers stood outside the labour ward in pain having a fag. I also smoked in the house (kitchen) and car yet managed to go outside when they had friends around.
So my reasons:
My children - yes I have probably harmed them already and I can never ever excuse that. I am a selfish, awful mother. I am lucky in that they are all in good health.
I want to see them grow up and get married and have children. I also don't want them to have a smoking mum as I know my mum smoking is what led to me trying it to begin with.
I want to be healthier, I struggle with walking up hills, my breathing is getting worse year by year and I'm only 31.
My family - my husband, mum and sister in law all have awful smokers coughs and I am scared of ending up like them
My mums side of the family have all died from cancer and I am scared without adding the risks of smoking, likewise my dads family all have heart problems.
I will stop there because I could list thousands of reasons to stop and only one reason to carry on - I enjoyed it, maybe not entirely true as I can see now that it is the addiction that makes us believe this but I would say I enjoyed some. Is that a good enough reason to destroy myself and the health of my family? No, never!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!