Is this hocd?

[Shayan123]

Hi i dont know what's happening to me like ive always been straight even had a physical relation with girls..but now a thought is diturbing me alot that im gay though i dont want to be one but it comes again and again i just want to suicide ..like when i see any girl i imagine her in a sex postion just to check if it feels ok..ive started avoiding boys. What to do please help me..am i a gay..like i dont even like boys too but this is bothering me alot

[Albertina_G]

Yes, it can be HOCD. Basically, in HOCD a person gets obsessive thoughts and intense fear and doubt over their sexual orientation and you are also getting thoughts that you are gay. I would recommend you to read some articles on HOCD and match the symptoms and thoughts with yours. This will help you to get a clarification that is HOCD or not.

anxietyhouse.com.au/homosex...

treatmyocd.com/blog/hocd-th...

[cambridgeborn]

Yes, this is HOCD! The exact same thing happened to me when I was 17 and I can really relate to your alarm. Please access some of the excellent online resources and podcasts on HOCD. They have helped me a lot.

[sligoguy]

Yeah mate you are freaking out and letting your mind go into false overdrive,ocd does that , anything you fear will grab you in an ocd attack .if it not the fear of being gay it could be the fear of being a cross dresser or the fear of turning into a woman ,,,can you see where this is going ?it's fear that drives ocd so tell it to f##k off and enjoy your life ,you are the boss not the fear ,good luck man