Hello

[wanttobefree]

Hi,im feeling really weird.Just as i was enjoying the good days i think i made a terrible desicion,I opened up with my bestfriend about my intrusive thoughts.I never told anyone but my parents.I mean ive known him since forever but i really feel uncomfortable,i am afraid that he is going to see me differently from now on or hes going to tell someone ,he really was chill about it and he said that were going to a psychologist together but i just feel awful,my minds receiving alot of thoughts i dont know if i made the right desicion i think it be better if no one would knew it,i literally triggered my self, i really am lost right now!!

Hope yall doing okay

[Hidden]

Hey! Nothing to worry about it! If he told you that everything is ok after that, is because EVERYTHING is ok. Sometimes we panic and we start to overthinking and is there when we “fail” just relax, breathe, and don’t think anything like if you were him, just take care of you own thoughts, and trust on him. We can’t control what others thinks, so if he says that everything is fine, so it is. You are lucky to have a friend who has proposed to go with you to a psychologist.

[Mabelocd]

He sounds like a good friend. It is difficult for us to trust others with the OCD part of ourselves.

As you become educated about OCD, share what you learn with your friend so he can understand more and more.

[sligoguy]

remember .these thoughts and stuff are an unwanted headwreck so thats why we are all here everyone thinks the most horrible weird and shamfull stuff we are just more sensitive to it .....others dont remember ir cos its just a passing thought that has no relevance ....we give it the time of day others without ocd dont

[Hidden]

You took a risk to tell your friend and now you're feeling vulnerable. I think it was a brave thing to do and could make you closer--could make him more likely to open up to you. It's a brave, hard thing to do what you did. Give yourself credit for that. You would be supportive if he opened up to you, right? I was really scared when I told a close friend that I'm a lesbian, way way back in 1980. I thought it was a huge, earth-shattering piece of news and she was great. She just said, "Oh, that's interesting. Tell me more!" We're still friends to this day. Trust your friend and trust yourself. You confided in a close friend. It will be fine.

[wanttobefree in reply to Hidden]

its super weird honestly,i really cant think straight right know,i didnt expect my mind to react like this

[Ladybug9]

If your friend is standing beside you and wants to help you, then you made the right decision. Don't dwell on your fear of not making the right choice. What does your gut tell you?

[wanttobefree in reply to Ladybug9]

My gut never worked properly i could never choose between 2 things,its the same right now i dont know

[Ladybug9 in reply to wanttobefree]

If you can't rely on your gut, can you rely on your heart?

[wanttobefree in reply to Ladybug9]

i really dont know thats what killing me

[Hidden]

Be proud of yourself for taking a risk and picking good friends. My therapist told me to use the "reasonable person" standard. What would a reasonable person do if a close friend confided something that they were worried about? And what would YOU do if HE confided something to you? Wouldn't you be a good friend? It's scary to take a risk, but you did it. You jumped off the high diving board.

[Sophie30x]

Did you feel absolute relief after telling your friend? I bet you did don’t worry too much about it. Unfortunately for me I have OCD of telling my partner my thoughts because if I don’t I get horrendous anxiety and guilt but she doesn’t want to know coz it’s unnecessary now I’m stuck and got a sticky mind. I’ve had one intrusive thought that I’m holding in but I’m struggling but I know it would kill her if she knew what I thought.

[wanttobefree in reply to Sophie30x]

i really didnt get relief thats whats bothering me