Unspoken/Thoughts🦋

[endurance1973]

Never in 1 million years what I thought my husband would find a female and leave me.. I was a true believer from day one. a true giver from day one. Not bad on the eyes, go to the gym, eat healthy snacks now and then, work in healthcare, independent, and I fell big time. I just found out May 20, 2024 about his new supply.. she’s younger, whole Lotta money, parties, definitely talks tons of trash, already shows signs of aggression and control over my husband. Her name is Jennifer. My husband name is Robert.. You go to Tennessee to visit your family and you get involved with the law and drinking and now you cannot return home to Florida where are you? Left us all. I will never understand how or why you could do this to us your family. I will never understand how you can allow this girl to block me on every item or social media or your phone or every single thing so that you and I never speak again, I will never understand how you allow her to curse or talk trash to me steal your wife till today August 20, 2024. God forbid something were to happen to one of us at home or your animals or your things or our home since I’m handling every responsibility on my own you would never know. I’m starting to realize you found this girl while you were drinking and you hit the jackpot and now everyone here in Florida is nothing as if we never existed. I can only imagine the stories you tell your new supply about me and I do not care anymore. What story you tell . I am drained and tired, emotionally spiritually physically, but yeah functioning to get to work to hold up our fort to still be true in our marriage when I know all the bad things you are doing against your marriage against God against me against yourself against your home, your animals Are young adults John 22 Isabella 23 and I know they are not your grown adults. They are mine. They sure did believe you too with all the trauma with all the police with all the drinking with all the addictions with all the running for you with all the debt with all the broken promises with all the love bombing, with all the pain and hurt and disbelief. I still dream of you my heart still searches for you. I still am trying to heal or look at myself in the mirror to say you’ll be OK one day. instead of what was wrong with me or why was I not enough or how could he do this to me or how could I be so stupid or so blind? I will never understand. I will never know because you blocked me you give me no closure you took everything that I hold so dear, and I put on a pedestal for seven years or marriage you what I believed in who you turned me into or made me believe you were and now I grieve. I mourn my husband and he is still alive, but has abandoned us all in every single way and I have yet to see any divorce papers in our mailbox and each attempt I tried to contact you, your female Jennifer just curses at me and hangs up as if I’m the parasite. You will never understand what you have done to our home not just me not just our young adults not just our amazing animals. Cats and dogs are home. Our church our community the friends we have had together here the places that I cannot visit anymore this songs I cannot listen to anymore, our bedroom every single thing you left behind as if nothing existed. Can you do this? Do you make it look so easy and my family who is still on your Facebook says you’re now in a relationship July 9, 2024 and y’all have all new pictures and you are calling her your love already , which tells me a timeframe .

We drove you to the airport December 28, 2023

You got in trouble with the law three different times in January you said you cannot come home.

those FaceTime moments on the phone with you on heartbreak and tears and love and missing from me and from you I thought were real, we even planned vacation May 26, 2024 but that day never came because on May 20, 2024 at 3 AM I FaceTime you as I was getting ready for work at the hospital you answered and you were drunk and you were with a female, and you said her full name I tried to beg you to explain all you did was hang up because you knew there was no way I can drive from our home in Florida where you are in Tennessee with your family .. from that moment on you extended one phone call to me May 29, 2024 telling me we have nothing to talk about that. It was over that you have moved on with a female just like that you block me and I never existed ever again. I cannot explain the trauma or pain. I cannot explain the thoughts, the tears the crushing the betrayal, the shock, the denial that you will never see that you will never get to feel that you will never know because you just don’t care. we’re not your problem, right?

I used to be high on life

A smile from ear to ear

so outgoing, loving and nurturing to all

I had how many people ask for my number and I was such a faithful, loyal, dedicated, loving, supportive, godly wife to only you since the day we met.. look at us now you are happy and moved on and get to have this new girl by all your favorite items and toys and trucks and clothes and animals beyond compare,,

left at home with every single chore responsibility, debt picking up broken pieces, trying to move on or make some kind of sense of what’s in the mirror while you discard us all as if we never existed as beyond punishment or cruelty that I wish God can drop you to your knees and make you feel what I feel every single night every single morning each day at work riding in my car alone, paying bills alone, taking care of your dogs, my dogs nicely putting away your clothes, your cowboy hat, your boots putting aside every single tool we bought for you to be successful at work.

How does a man claim to believe in God and pray yet abandoned his entire family because in his eyes, he told me once on a phone we’re done with someone and goodbye,, and leaving the wife wandering what the heck just happened out of left field without warning without notice.

Then I thought, obviously because she’s younger because she can buy you everything you lost just like I did for you…. but she can provide you more that I could not afford

I hope that when you gain the world, you remember that God said you will also lose your soul,, Yes, we serve a heavenly father who will forgive adultery when you ask for it when you feel remorseful, but I don’t think you feel at all, which is why you make everything look so easy to just disappear.

in my heart, I hate you so bad and hate is a horrible word to use so I will say to the universe and to God that I’m trying to forgive you in my heart I’m trying to let go and like God with everything that I am and my thoughts are cruel and I am cruel to myself, and I am trying so hard to push forward and handle everything and prayer and on my own whatever I have that I am humbled with and grateful for my dreams. I’m still being tortured by your words your face remembering how you used to put me on that pedestal . maybe someone reading this can send this to my husband. Robert Nichols Sevierville, TN 38762. Jennifer, Flores.

two people

Homewrecker

garbage people

Claiming to love the Lord, but willing and knowingly, destroy an innocent woman who tried to fight for her husband and her marriage that they were twist into a joke of how the wife is a psycho, but not how the husband created that situation or how the husband let us all the way up to this point and if only he could have let me speak to him here and there if I needed something at home for his animals or for me to stay afloat because I am the wife because I thought we were best friends because for me I truly believed I believed in you, I believed in us, and you always told me no matter what… you love me always, and forever that you would never leave me that you would never cheat on me and look at what you’re doing today..

why does my heart and my brain fight constantly? Why is my soul being tormented with thoughts of who I thought you truly were when all I see now is just a male catching feelings for a female because her pocket is larger than his wife’s.,, because she hasn’t met you yet,, but your wife held your hand through your darkest moments through your secrets through your pain. Your wife still here and you break her because she’s poor in the pocket….

SMH.. shame on you.💔🎭