Loneliness, health issues, joblessness.

[SprtUnDoom]

I'm 23, not working, generally lost in life.I've been suffering with dysphagia for about a year now. Which has greatly affected me both mentally and physically.

I live life in solitude, I don't have any actual friends at this point because I gradually pushed everyone away and lost connection with people in general. I feel like no one can understand my situation. Most of the time I'm okay with loneliness but some times it gets hard. Sometimes I wake up at night and feel this loneliness deep in my heart. The feeling is actually physical almost like there's a black hole in my chest and stomach. There's something really daunting when you know there's no one to relate to and no one who understands. Lately I've been feeling like I've lost some of my mental abilities. I'm having trouble with memory and communication. Also I feel exhausted most of the time. It's almost like I live life in a state of constant detachment.