Sometimes I find it hard to get out of bed and start the day off - I find that I get more melancholy and dysphoric if I can't muster the energy nor' the mental state to start things off - I also find that I can slip into addictive tendencies more easily.
My math teacher a couple months ago told me that when this happens, it's because I can't function. I tend to find myself (like last night) really overcome with a deep sense of grief and despair as I slipped into bed - I imagined that if I'd had something like a partner or a friend to comfort me in such a time, that, I'd feel better.
Though these are my present and habitual struggles, I have organised myself a structure for the day - to get out of bed, jump in the shower and head outside to really bask in the sun -- though it's 4pm and I'm yet to start such, the day is still bright and composing this message has given me more courage to approach the day.