I have been permanently disabled now following a TBI since 2009. Due to this I am unable to work every again and my life is about pain management and reminders to do everything!
Often I feel like the old me is locked inside of me and trying to get out so that I can go back to normal. Normal as in the person that I was before the TBI. Every traumatic experience in my life I have overcome but this I can not beat it no matter how many ways I try.
I also can not accept that this is the person that I have been made into! My world has shrunken to having very few people in my life and I am basically stuck at home 95% of the time. Depression is not a problem with me and yet I feel as though I am stuck in a warped Groundhog Day spin off!
Does this make sense to anyone else?