Situational Update

[Dragon3695]

I haven't posted or checked in on the site for awhile. I have been going through a lot of growth and changes lately. I had two job interviews for the first time in over ten years today thanks to my therapist and the program he got me into. I'm just one yes away from having my own place and as well as a job that pays somewhere in the twenty dollar an hour range. Things are looking up for me in most areas of my life. I am still struggling with issues with my emotions as well as my feelings for my current roommate however. I love her and want to be with her but since she doesn't share those feelings I get jealous when she has guys over. I know I can not control it and I know it frustrates her that I can not control my emotions but it hurts so badly that it cuts like a deep knife knowing she is in another room having sex with a friend. I just want her to be happy but I hate how much it hurts me and I am having a really hard time getting past my feelings for her so I can try to be happy as well. Right now all my hopes are that distance either helps me get past my feelings or she starts to realize she does have feelings for me and things change. Two things I am sure of is only time will tell and it is all out of my hands at this current moment.

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Love and unconditional love is hard but you don’t seem to be asking much in return. Use your choice more wisely and be loved in return. Plenty of fish in the sea. Plenty of people that want love and returned