Is it possible to feel you have two people running your emotions and feelings but living as one person.i have wrote down how I feel as 1, then as 2
Number 1 can talk, express feelings,feel hurt, confused,irrational thoughts enter my head and I can write and speak how I feel at that time
Number 2 is embarrassed about no.1, wished I had not said or wrote anything,clam up,I ignore 1,..I am fine, don't tell anyone or they will think I am insane.wont even tell doctor.
Am I truelly mad, it is the first time I have ever come to terms with this and wrote both sides down to try and show my therapist later. I have promised myself not to rub anything out and see what she says later. I just hope I can show her the paper. If all this sounds confusing.... can you imagine how things are in my head. My number 1 scares me as she is impulsive and in the past I have even tried to take my own life.if anyone could shed some light on this I would be so grateful.