Depressed that my boy is growing to fast and my depression is causing me to miss him even more.

[Mjpc]

I am a mom of an 11yr old son. I was sexually assaulted at work 2 years ago and since lost my job (but that’s not my concern) my concern is that I have developed crippling anxiety and depression where I had to be hospitalized a year ago for 10days my son was told that mommy was sick and would get better but it would take some time, I told him that it was a sickness of my brain that caused me to feel sad even when I wasn’t. Well now here we are a year later and many failed meds. I am still telling him I’m going to get better but I’m starting to doubt myself. My thoughts are consumed with the fact that he is 11 and doesn’t need me as much. I feel so depressed because I miss that little boy. But I get so mad because I’m missing out on him now. Any advice on how to stop missing the little boy who grew up to quick. It also doesn’t help that almost everyone I know is pregnant or has littles. I just want my baby boy back. I know that’s not possible but my mind won’t let it go.

[Hidden]

Has your son been taken of you until your health improves. If this is the case where does your husband or not comes into this ??.

BOB

[Mjpc in reply to Hidden]

No my son lives with me. His dad is also home with us. We try to lead a pretty normal life. I have a good support system. My sister takes him on lots of adventures.

[Hidden in reply to Mjpc]

The first thirteen/fifteen years of the life of a child are its most informative and during that time it is important the Parents are there to mould the child to make Him a positive member of Society in general, Parents never get that time back and it is a great loss within that family dynamic. In my childhood virtually ended when I was ten years old, so I was dragged through my teens where my life because a heavy learning curve we strict correction was enforced, I learned and made my errors, I knew no different.

Hang in there the three of you, children can be if allowed be a real, healing thing to have. You are very lucky the three of you. Move on in a positive mood together.

I hope you get well soon you will all learn together.

BOB

[Mjpc in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much. We are hanging In there. Some good days. And I cherish those so much.

[welly10]

Why don't you try and do things you like with your husband or sister that do not involve your son maybe this will ease the eventual parting of ways.my daughter is 10 I miss her but I do like to do things I like without her.your son will always be there for you remember that.