Internal War

[I_Hate_Me_2]

Coping is hard

But does this mean

Giving up is easy...

Or just as hard?

What does giving up mean?

Don’t know what I’m doing

Yet I seem to have accomplished

Not coping and being a failure.

That’s me in a nutshell.

I’m a walking mess

Who seems to have fallen

To my knees.

As the internal screams

Become louder and louder

My voice becoming silenced

By screams

Only I can hear.

I listen to them...

Swallowing the toxic words

Or are they toxic?

Who’s truth is it?

I feel so consumed

[Dolphin14]

They are toxics words. The truth is you are a wonderful person. Keep telling yourself that.

You express yourself so well. Keep up with the writing it's good for you to get those feelings out.

[I_Hate_Me_2 in reply to Dolphin14]

I know your thoughts on my writings. Thank you Dolphin14 for everything. I happen to think the same about you. But I’m a disgrace.

Really don’t know what’s going on right now. I’ve spiralled today and can’t seem to get ahold of myself. I don’t know what’s going on. 😭

[Dolphin14 in reply to I_Hate_Me_2]

I'm going to pm you

[Shilpa08]

I am also a failure and a bad person but have to keep holding and you can dm anytime I am there to listen

[RedBird09]

I feel the exact same way! I feel like I'm in my own personal hell. I can't shake it. Hang in there. I will pray For you. 🙏 Life does get better.