I need to see how bad I am getting

[Daniiiii101]

I used to self harm, I stopped now because I wear short sleeves at work and I wouldnt want anyone to see it. But when I eat I make myself sick even though I may not eat alot of food. I used to use laxatives and I used to starve. I have lost motivation with anything to do with school and I lose concentration in school because I am thinking about food and what im going yo eat and how im going to lose weight etc. I get suicidal thoughts and I would get help but I dont want my parents to know.

[Hidden]

You must reach out and visualise yourself getting better and doing normal things and want this very badly. Self pamper and love yourself, with relaxation videos on youtube and motivational video.

You need to see yourself being guided by angels and god to do good for yourself and others

[Hidden]

It appears you may have an eating disorder complicated by depression, or depression complicated by an eating disorder. Looks like you traded self mutiluzation for a different coping mechanism, trade vices, etc. ?

You truly need to reach out to your parents. You can also try to reach out to your school counselors as well. You need to get down to and deal with the issues that are driving you to do this so you can stop. I hope you’ll reach out to your parents today.

[Daniiiii101 in reply to Hidden]

I dont want my parents to know because they overreact to things and it will make me feel much worse, it will make me feel like I am being watched all the time. I would get help from school but only if I knew that they wouldnt call ny parents

[Hidden in reply to Daniiiii101]

Your parents, friends or family hasn’t notice any changes in you?

I’ve had depression and an eating disorder at the same time, trust me when I say this is very complicated to overcome on your own.

All I can do is encourage you to get help. I assume you are a minor so giving health advice that does not include parents or guardians isn’t something anyone here can do. I hope you’ll get the therapy you need and start a path towards recovery. Any damage you’ve done to your body can be reversible the sooner you take back your health. Best of luck.

[Daniiiii101 in reply to Hidden]

Im 18 and no they havent noticed because I hide it well, thank u for the advice tho x

[Hidden in reply to Daniiiii101]

If your in the US, you are of age. I’d start calling your doctor, he can not disclose your medical information. There’s eating disorder help online and I’d look into my school counseling. You can always ask them if anything you disclose is kept confidential before you disclose anything. They may can refer you as a first step to getting you to resources that can help you.

You’ll have to be ready to start recovery, so these are just some thoughts for you to consider.

[Seddy85]

Please reach out I lost my 17 year old cousin to anorexia and she had been in priory but her heart got so small please talk to a doctor