Trigger warning ... self harm

[Ham1lton]

Ok this is a tough one ... I haven’t self harmed in months but tonight I did ... I just wanted to keep going and going I was so confused and just didn’t care anymore and now I’m not sure what to do ... I feel really vulnerable

[Marshall64]

What is going on?

[Ham1lton in reply to Marshall64]

I feel lost and self harm is my only control

[Kaytee1981]

I've not self harmed for a while - few weeks maybe - I'm with you though when you say you can't stop. I find that if I self harm after a period of not then I just want to keep going and cant stop then I get myself get in a right tizz/mess. It's like all of a sudden that cutting releases all the pent up emotions and feelings that I havent been able to express.

[Ham1lton in reply to Kaytee1981]

I agree it releases all the feelings that you’ve not been able to reach for a while... I really want to carry on because my head keeps telling me it’s not enough and all the bad feelings come back again

[Kaytee1981 in reply to Ham1lton]

That's the problem with this coping mechanism - it's not really coping 🤷‍♀️

[Ham1lton in reply to Kaytee1981]

Yeah you just feel ok for a few minutes then it goes down hill x

[Beautifulrainbow]

I think it's the time of year when we all get stressed and if you can't talk it through with anyone it builds up and up till you can't take no more, I hadn't self harmed in ages but the other day I needed to release the tension, frustration that I'd been feeling so I did the same. But I hope for you it's just what your going through at the moment and you won't feel you need to do it anymore. Good luck.

[Sarah1111111 Ambassador]

Don’t let one slip stop you getting Better. We always have times when we slip back into things. I know what it feels like the need to keep going with any addictive behaviors but be strong and don’t let it win. See today as a fresh start , you’ve stopped before you can do it again.