Reaching out

[Lib234]

These last two months have brought me to my lowest point. The anxiety and depression has slowly creeped back in. Everyday I awake and my mind is racing and the general feeling of doom takes over. A few weeks ago I ended a toxic relationship after coming home to find my boyfriend of six years with another woman in the house we shared. It feels as though my entire being is wrecked. I was already dealing with the depression and the anxiety and then to be hit by this betrayal. I’m functioning for the meat fact that I have my mom and sister around me. I’m afraid once i move into my own apartment next month, I will sink even deeper. I feel like I’m fighting a loosing battle.

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello Lib234

Welcome to this group. Thank you for your message.

It sounds as if you have good reason to feel so bad, no wonder things have got worse for you recently.

Your Mom and sister are very good support for you. Your awareness of this is positive and you are definitely working your way to a better place.

Is the apartment you are moving to near to your Mom and Sister?

It may help if you can spend time with them when possible.

Have you talked to your doctor about this and are you getting any help or treatments?

Our members are really supportive so might be able to offer more help.

Take a look at the topics and pinned posts. There are some details about helplines in the USA .

Please get back to us and keep us updated.

Best wishes

[Lib234 in reply to MAS_Nurse]

Thanks for responding to my post, it helps to know someone is listening. I will be moving into the same building as my sister ( if my application is approved). She has my mom and a 3 month old and doesn’t have the space so, moving in with her was not an option. Due to my insurance,(kaiser) I’ve only been able to have one psychotherapy session since everything has happened. During therapy, I talked about the anxiety and depression I’m currently in but, I felt as though she didn’t see it as severe. After six years of bottling up my feelings during a six year relationship which was emotionally/ verbally abusive and traumatic, I don’t know how to function as an individual. My social skills are gone, can’t make small decisions on my own and it feels like I’m a 32 year on kid that’s been left to fend for themselves.

[thesunwillcomeout in reply to Lib234]

Hi Lib234 I completely understand how you are feeling right now. I have a similar situation after ending a 5 year relationship and after that my world was shook. I lost all my relationships and friendships and cut people off even though right now I need them more. I share this with you because I’m the midst of everything and our worst days there is always someone there that gets it and understands. I know it is easier said than done but you aren’t alone. Visit your sister and mother as often as you can. Moving into your apartment will be good for you to find yourself again and gain your strong independence.