Flashbacks, Dreams and Chest pains

[DSTJ]

Wonder if anyone can help me... Over the last two to three months, I have been having some disturbing and distressing dreams/nightmares and flashbacks. I know I was abused as a child by a family member. But somehow, I managed to successfully put all those experiences in a 'box'. But a gew years ago, I was bullied at work and had some family issues, and it all came flooding back.

After being diagnosed with depression and PTSD, I ended up having to go on AD's on and off for four years. But I am now having therapy at the hospital due to my reocurring depression. I am finding the counselling very hard ay the moment, especially opening up 40 some years later. Discussing certain things has even caused me to vomit and cause my chest to feel tight. It makes me feel like I'm a child again. As a child I used to be sick and even wet my bed because I was upset. But more recently the same scenario has been in my dreams or nightmares, and I have wet my bed several times, which is very distressing and embarassing. I really am not sure if what I am dreaming really happened, but it feels so real. It's not my meds cos I have had these nightmares before and the feelings I get afterwards. I'm scared to talk about it, cos it makes it more real. When I'm awake I experience a real bad feeling in my chest, which frightens me. I have therapy today, but am scared about addressing this with my Therapist.

Sorry to be so long....but can anyone advise me.

Many thanks for listening.

[MAS_Nurse]

Hi DSTJ,

I know it is difficult for you, but you need to discuss these physiological symptoms with your therapist as well as the psychological ones, as they seem to be interrelated. Maybe you are acting out in your dreams (when you are at your most vulnerable) your past traumas, which would be very understandable. In regards to chest pains, just to make sure there is nothing clinically underlying those symptoms, it might be advisable to ask your doctor if you can have an ECG to check all is well cardiac wise.

Best wishes,

MAS Nurse and Moderator

[DSTJ in reply to MAS_Nurse]

Thank you so much. I think I am so scared because what I am experiencing is so vivid that I don't rrally want to believe or accept it may have happened. But I will speak to my Therapist.

[Hidden]

Sorry for your early life concerns and trauma.

I have nightmares, regards my work and early family life. My concerns when they approached my problems was false memories, especially when it was such a long time ago. I am not saying this is a problem with you, with me it became a problem relating to a brutal nasty past.

Now I am very insular and on this site, my activities I feel more in control. I prefer my own Council and that of my Wife and Pax. Hurt can really push us into some really nasty places and this can make us very or to sensitive to our lives now.

Moving on can be very hard although given time you really need to move on and look forward to a more positive life and not dwell on the past.

Talk it out and hopefully, move on

Keep a hold

BOB

[DSTJ in reply to Hidden]

BOB, thanks for your advice. I talked it out with my Therapist with lots of tears. I'm still struggling with the reality of what happened and the shame of hoe and what I am experiencing now. Somehow I feel as if Ihave reverted to being that child again, and that hurts!😢

Appreciate your support