I'm 45 years alone & I picture my life so different. I lost my virginity at 36 by being date raped. Only had one boyfriend & he abused in every way, mentally, emotionally, verbally but never physically.
I haven't had a job in 6 years and atm I care for my mum. I look normal. You can't see the pain. I live with daily chronic pelvic pain that effects all area's of my life. Endometriosis has made my life a living hell.
Now I'm going for a hysterectomy but told ahead that it won't take my pain away. That the endo pain will always be a part of my life.
I have chronic depression & general anxiety but I try not to feel sorry for myself. I go out & see couples & babies that will never be a part of my life. I have no friends, no job & never-ending loneliness.
I feel as though my life has already passed me by.
Sorry just had to get it off my chest.