I am a skinny fat guy. Honestly I have quite a bit of muscle, I just can't see my abs or anything, but that's not the point here.
Motivation is a huge problem for me. Not just in working out, but in live in general. I feel it dwindling away every day. When I do my schoolwork and I have to balance it out with the character of the school that I go to, and my time management... I feel so lost and my self consciousness just eats away at me. I just want to curl up and cry, but I can't. I am casing all of these emotions inside of me because I have to appear strong at this school. I can't show any emotion. This is all going to come to a head. I am going to get in a fight or something, or I'm going to just start crying at night. I sit here, in front of my computer, totally angry and I wish I could do more about it, but I can't. I have tried listening to music and motivational speeches, but it doesnt work. I dont want to continue. My breaks are never long enough, and this is too demanding.