What am doing wrong

[Mslonely50]

I thought I find the perfect man I love him dearly and help him and all he want to to hurt me in every way he knew how I can't live like this am a good person I have help allot of people's in my life I feel now they had turn on me I won't to find love so I can give love I don't want to take my life am 50 years old please help me I was strong now I don't know like to meet up with something like my story

[Casper007]

I don’t know your history at all but I just came across this, I’m currently going through a breakup myself and it’s the most difficult thing ever but things will get easier have faith take each day as it comes, you’re worth better something better will be on it’s way

[Mslonely50 in reply to Casper007]

Thank u I needed to hear that I pray that things will get better for me . I been getting alot pain in my chest I can't take no more disappointment in my life I don't have no friends the friends I did have passed away plus am rising a child who as autism with no help 24 hours a day I have no life

[hypercat54]

Hi sorry to hear this. I think all of us women believe finding the perfect man is the way to happiness, but unfortunately the fairy tale only exists in our imaginations. This man instead of being perfect sounds like a user and abuser. There are unfortunately many people like this around so try and avoid them.

From what you have said it sounds like you are a people pleaser and that you put everyone else's feelings before your own, then when you need someone they all disappear? You need to start putting your own needs and wants first as no one else will. This isn't selfish but self preservation and if you are happier then so are your loved ones and everyone else around you.

Have you considered having counselling? This might help you work things out. x

[Mslonely50 in reply to hypercat54]

Hello yes I been to so many therapy it's help a little bit

[Cwoods]

Break ups are always hard but i know one thing as the days goes on by it will get better take this time to just focus on YOU nothing is better than self love.

[Mslonely50]

Hello again am still having bad thoughts my birthday is next month feb4 and I been thinking am going to end my life I thought I did everything right and it seem like crushing in my face I been with Paul over 5 years hurt me and go back where it all being that like shit in my face know about his house where Paul is staying his friend is B sex he go both ways I believe that they been together he buying him anything so what's do that said he's married but she to dumb to believe when u are drinking like him u do anything I saw it before he still in the closet spead diseases around and going back on Jones with the dirty hoe he never value my love at all am pretty sure he getting it sucks shame of my self never through this could nt happen to me I guess I was wrong he blame me for what had happen in his childhood he pairing the price the one thing I ask him not to do is not to make a fool of me and he did I can't go on knowing now people's are knowing o got to go just stabbed myself or take pills so I never wake up so I won't face another day am already just bye to him he always be in my thought s lol Paul thanks everyone just listening to me ps ms lonely 50