Hi everyone, I'm new to this kind of thing and I'm hoping someone can help me find out what problems I've got. I hope you don't mind but I'd like to stay as anonymous as possible so all I'll say is that I'm a boy in high school. I had a vitamin D deficiency and I was also previously diagnosed with social anxiety, but I feel that might not be the case. I've read articles about it and I find it hard to relate with other people's experiences and I've realised most symptoms don't apply to me. I was seeing a counsellor regularly for a year and CBT (which I've heard is the best "cure") isn't really working on me. I'm seeing a therapist in 2 weeks when I'm back home (i'm at a boarding school and it's hard to see a therapist without other people knowing) to get a diagnosis. I suffer from what I think is SAD, in addition to mild depression, a bit of paranoia, anti-socialness (i want to be social but find myself drifting away from others), trust issues (even with my own parents and brother). In social situations I find i tense up sometimes, I can also be completely calm but all the time my mind goes blank for ideas to carry on the conversation and the chat goes dead. Because I haven't found a solution to these I've found that I've slowly shrunken away from people and become more reclusive, and I've also become very passive aggressive to the point that I'm bullied a bit (which says a lot because I could beat any of them in a fight I just can't be bothered to do anything). I know this is quite long and a pain to read, so thanks if you've got this far. It means a lot that you've cared to read this and if you've got any suggestions, please let me know.