Lost

[Shenka]

I feel so lost like not worth going on. Such a frightening place to be. I have stared into the black hole of depression in the past but this emptiness is much worse. Much more general maybe because I am older and my husband left. I feel so lost

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello Shenka

Thanks for telling us about how you feel. You are obviously in a very difficult place right now. You have been through so much, this will be having an impact on you.

We are here to support you so Really appreciate that you shared this with us. Our members may have experiences that they can share with you too.

Have you talked with your doctor?

It may help to talk things through with a friend or family member. If that is difficult writing things down may help.

If you need to see a doctor today

NHS 111 May help if more urgent 999.

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Helpline 0300 123 3393

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Do let us know how you get on and keep in touch

Best wishes

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Shenka

Have you discussed your feelings with your Doctor, if so are you taking medications at this time. If you have not seen your GP make an appointment especially if you cannot control your Depression and it is getting worse.

If it is urgent you need help contact the NHS INFORMATION LINE on Tel 111, They can advise and arrange help

BOB

[Shenka in reply to Hidden]

Thanks Bob for your reply. I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism over a year ago and this August supposedly reached the optimum dose. However I saw my Dr last week as I felt various symptoms returning and had to insist on a blood test as he said my levels wouldn't have changed. Well I was right so now have just started increased meds which take several weeks to have an effect. I am hoping that will help but it's hard putting up with the empty feeling I have meanwhile. I do take sertraline for depression also.

[hypercat54 in reply to Shenka]

Hi I am not surprised you are feeling like this with your illness and your husband leaving and depression! It's a triple whammy.

I am in a similar situation except I haven't had a husband leaving or anything but I have been diagnosed with borderline under active thyroid but am being given 25 micro grams of thyroxin but it isn't helping. What with the constant fatigue, tiredness, depression, mild copd (shortness of breath) and my chronic lower back pain I can barely function anymore. I am sleeping 11/12 hours a day with even longer actually spent resting in bed. I can't do housework and my home is a tip. All I can do is come in here and watch YouTube. x

[Shenka in reply to hypercat54]

My goodness hyper how well do I recognise all those symptoms you describe. Have you been on 25mg for long? It takes up to 6 weeks to feel better but I believe 25mg is a starter dose in any case. Mine has just been increased from 100 to 125 but my levels were really bad at the start. It's so frustrating looking at all the things needing done and having no energy to do it. I really hope we both feel better soon. X

[hypercat54 in reply to Shenka]

Oh does it take that long? I had no idea as have only been taking it for around 3 weeks. I will persevere. I did try to get in to see a doctor but the best I could get was a phone call back 5 days later! The doctor then said he would put me on this but of course it's difficult to discuss it properly just on the phone isn't it. Is it essential to take it half an hour before breakfast? If I am running late this can be difficult.

I am sorry you are also on this but also glad coz you totally get it don't you. It's the fatigue which is the worst for me. It massively exacerbates my other physical and mental problems.

Even though I am technically borderline (TS3 was 11.7) and the doctor said it should be between 11-24 I have all the symptoms. My skin has coarsened and become dry, apart from my head I have lost nearly all my hair, I get digestion problems ie flatulence and chronic indigestion as well as the fatigue. I have also put on 3 stone in weight. I did give up smoking as well which didn't help. I just want to feel normal again. x

[Hidden in reply to Shenka]

Shenka

It is so very hard when you are suffering from multiple conditions and you are finding it hard to move on in a positive way. I am the same and it can really distract my mood.

All I can really suggest is be strong and try to divert your mood by any interests you may have. It does work for me, and it keeps me from dwelling to much on my disabilities

Always here to help

BOB

[art62grammie]

I know exactly how you feel. I have suffered from Anorexia for 40 years. I was 14 when the illness began. I am now 56. Six years ago I checked myself into to treatment. This was the first time. I have since recovered. I know the lonely and depressed life way too well. I have lived most of my life in loneliness and sadness. I too was in a recent breakup from a 17- year relationship with my now ex-husband. We were married for15 years. I have been divorced now since April of this year. It took a year to get the divorce over. Was that ever tough? I lost my fifteen- year- old son in the divorce. He took his dad's side. I have not seen him in a year and a half. Painful, yes indeed. He does not communicate by phone or text much either. I have noticed with the holiday season. It is a little more upsetting for me. I miss my son and love him so much. I will get past the holidays. Maybe a few extra tears. I want you to know. Life is wonderful. I made it through a lot in my life. Seek help from doctors if have not already. I have a 52-year-old sister who has very severe depression. She talks about the black hole feeling. I too have been there. I felt like there was no hope. I kept looking for the light in that black hole. With mental help and very little medication. The black hole no longer exists. I found the light that I had searched for for forty years. RECOVERY FROM ANOREXIA IS WONDERFUL. PLEASE ASK FOR HELP AND TALK. TALK ABOUT FEELINGS. IT HELPS SO MUCH. OTHERS LOVE YOU AND TALKING IS A WAY TO LET IT ALL OUT.