Not coping anymore

[Horseygirl44]

Hi, I have recently had a sudden relapse of my depression and as a result my doctor increased my anti depressants. It's been nearly 4 weeks. I felt improvement after about a week but now I'm feeling bad again. Scared my meds aren't working and that'll feel like this forever with no chance of improvement or happiness. I try so much to be positive but nothing seems to work. Everyone keeps telling me that it will get better and to find stuff to do but I just don't have the energy or inclination to try. I feel like giving up. Anyone out there have any positive stories or advice?

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Hello

Sometimes I can feel listless and tired. Being low can also be a problem. In my case yes I suffer Depression, also I suffer from Congenital Short Term Memory Disorder and a Chronic skin/joint condition that is the main instigator of my Mental Health Problems.

I now find looking for diversions, like hobbies can help, you could also try Voluntary Work associated with your mental health concern. We have a large garden and grow fruit trees so that keeps me busy. Look for something you are interested in. Sometimes attending a Mental Health Day Centre can also help. The members help each other and you will gain support. Ask your GP Reception if they know of any places you could go to

Try Mindfulness Relaxation Technique, that may help you relax when you are in the midst of a Depressive mood. This technique includes various coping techniques and seems to work with many people. There are other techniques, that are used in Pain Management you could try although the former can help your relax if given a chance.

We also have a dog called Pax, This afternoon He has been for a walk along the town walls, not only does the dog enjoy the walk it also seems to help lift the mood and opens up the lungs to fresh air, so walking seems to help, my problem is I have problems getting around so I have restricted movement.

BOB

[Horseygirl44 in reply to Hidden]

Thankyou, have got counselling arranged and am trying my best to busy myself. Also looking into mindfulness techniques.

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello there,

Welcome to our supportive community. Well done for taking a brave step out of your comfort zone to reach out for help. As you have begun to find folks here are only too willing to come alongside you and share from their personal journeys and experiences. You are obviously having a difficult time right now, but I do agree with the great advice and support the other members have given to you. I would advise that you go back to your GP and ask for help from your medical professionals, there's a whole range of therapies that can help you, such as mindfulness (as BOB has mentioned) and talking therapies. Bear in mind that when it comes to medication there is no one size fits all! Everybody reacts differently, and sometimes your doctor needs to adjust your medication dose or even change it if one suits you better than another. It does take time for antidepressants to bed in so to speak, so I would go back and have another chat.

In the meantime, do check out our Pinned Post section for free mental health guides, international crisis support helplines: healthunlocked.com/mental-h...

Keep your chin up, you have taken the first step in reaching out for help from this forum. Keep in touch. We are listening and here for each other,

Best wishes, MAS Nurse

[Horseygirl44 in reply to MAS_Nurse]

Many thanks. I have arranged counselling and trying mindfulness techniques. I have spoken to my doctor today and the advice is to give the meds more time. It is also possible that my hormones are playing a part in this. Again, thanks for the advice x

[Horseygirl44 in reply to MAS_Nurse]

What can I do? I'm in a constant state of misery and fear. My actions are hurting everyone around me and I really can't take it anymore. I don't know what is wrong with me, I used to enjoy my life but now I hate living. The only time I'm content is when I'm asleep so the idea of permanent sleep feels great. I hate the idea of leaving my children but I can't help but feel they would be better off without me. I want to end it all but I don't have the guts. Really wish someone could help me.

[Rm31 in reply to Horseygirl44]

You are speaking exactly my mind during an episode. I have constant self doubt and the fact that I desperately need people's attention and love doesn't matter because I haven't been able to make friends. I speak my mind. My humor is sarcastic. I constantly feel the people around me don't like me. Some of them don't talk to me, making it worse. I come across unloving because I feel so unloved and mistreated. I feel a sense of impending doom. Looking at the world from the outside shows me a very ugly picture of it. Maybe unexpected love and some meds can change me. But it's impossible on my own.

[Rm31]

I've had more episodes of depression and now it's turning into alcoholism and anger. I haven't asked my doctor to up the antidepressant dose yet. I'm not sure if the meds will fix the emptiness in my life. I should ask her tho.

My prescription Xanax makes me depressed so I have stopped using it even if I feel anxious.

[Horseygirl44 in reply to Rm31]

Hey, I genuinely tried to hurt myself yesterday. Didn't get very far, found it too painful. Had a crisis team visit today. Did help and I feel better today. Think my meds are finally starting to work. I do think that you should go back to your doctor and maybe get your antidepressants increased or even changed, especially if they're not helping you. I start counselling soon too, hoping it will help with my feelings of self loathing etc. Had a fair amount of shit happen in my life and it has finally got me down. Perhaps you should try it too. We are both worth helping and I'm sure we still have something to contribute to life. For me my kids are my inspiration. They need me and I need them. Find your inspiration and work towards it. Please tell yourself that you are worth the effort. It is very hard work I know, but surely you deserve the opportunity to make yourself better. Take care and please don't give up xx