Im starting to feel like I can never relate to people in the same way again. After how DEEP and dark my depression got at its deepest, I kind of embarked on a spiritual journey. Not looking for answers, but asking more questions. It gave me a tent pole to hold onto because I'm not religious and don't blame everything on God. I do believe in a Higher Power though.
Regardless of the fact, now I'm noticing that while I'm trying to get out of isolation, no one is on my wavelength. No one really cares about this journey and think I'm just being "fake deep for IG". No one knows what's in my head. It's hard to get close to or intimate with men because I feel like they don't care about this journey and if you can't understand the journey or try to, you'll never understand me. I am also cautious of who I divulge the intimate details of this journey too. I don't tell everything because it's very personal. However on social media I'm very vocal because people literally thank me for sharing my journey.
How can I relate to people anymore? Or have I just not met someone worth it? People literally laugh when I say I'm on a spiritual journey and it really hurts me. Like deeply.
Has anyone else experienced this?