Misunderstood

[MyMania]

Misunderstood

You cannot make everyone think and feel as deeply as you do. This is your tragedy… because you understand them, but they do not understand you. I do not know what it is like to not have deep emotions, even when I feel nothing, I feel it completely. Sometimes I have kept my feelings to myself, because I could find no language to describe them in.

It is one of my theories that when people give you advice, they are really just talking to themselves in the past. Can you remember who you were, before the world told you who you should be?

I like people with depth, I like people with a strong mind, an interesting mind, a twisted mind, and also someone that can make me smile. Don’t worry if people think your crazy. You are crazy. You have that kind of intoxicating insanity that lets other people dream outside of the lines and become who they are destined to be.

You have got to much soul to be handled by someone who has never been passionate. Respect yourself enough to say “I deserve peace” and walk away from people and things that prevent you from attaining it.

Do yourself a favor and learn how to walk away, when a connection starts to fade, learn how to let it go. When a person starts to mistreat you, learn to move on… to something and someone better. Don’t waste your energy trying to force something that isn’t meant to be… because the truth is. For every one person who doesn’t value you. There are tons more waiting to love you better.

Just always be the better person and make your intentions pure. What and who you are is what you will attract, what you will maintain. Pain is inevitable and it will always exist, but if you focus on understanding what you are feeling and why you are feeling it, you will overcome it.

There is no statue of limitations on starting over. Reinvent yourself every day. Be the person who walks barefoot and listens to the blues. Tomorrow, wear your colors and speak fierce truths. Be a phoenix. Be ashes. Burn down. Resurrect. Let go of the idea that you must always be who you have always been.

You will always be to much of something for someone. Too big. To loud. Too soft. Too edgy. If you round out your edges, you lose your edge. Apologize for mistakes, apologize for unintentionally hurting someone profusely. But don’t apologize for who you are.

Sometimes you just need an adventure to cleanse the bitter taste of life from your soul. Take a shower, wash off the day. Drink a glass of water. Make the room dark. Lie down and close your eyes. Notice the silence. Notice you heart. Still beating. Still fighting. You made it, after all. You made it, another day. And you can make it one more. You are doing just fine.

Start now. Start where you are, with all your pain, fears and doubt. Start with your hands shaking, with your voice trembling. But start. Start and don’t stop. Start everywhere you are, with what you have. Just… start.