In Search of Support

I’m a 21 year old female. I suffer from manic depression. My biggest issue in life is the inescapable feeling of being completely and totally alone. I tell myself that I’m fine because I KNOW I’m not alone, and I know people care, but when I go into episodes it’s the first detail about life that I seem to forget. I tell myself I have no hope of ever blending in or finding a home. And I believe myself to a terrifiying depth. Trusting people is impossible, and getting comfortable is ever more difficult. I’ve chosen to become part of this community in search of people who struggle in ways like me, friends who’s ultimate goal is to lift each other up. 🌸

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello sifty

Thank you for your message, you are obviously working hard with your situation and have a very good awareness of what is happening for you.

Yes our members are very supportive, so may have more information and ideas.

Do you have support from your doctor or support worker? Are there any friends or family that you can talk with about your situation?

The topics and pinned posts might have more information for you too.

MIND at mind.org may also be useful.

Do take care and keep in touch

[Hidden in reply to MAS_Nurse]

I thank you immensely for the advice.

[Strongheartforever]

That dark feeling of being alone is a natural instinct that’s out of your control and it hurts for a reason. It’s a survival instinct. So address it and acknowledge it and start building a network of people in your life to help you. I remember at your age I would wake up in the middle of the night and feel that way and it was terrifying. Being far from home, a struggling student in a big city, surrounded by strange new people and experiences, I felt like I was the only human ever faced with such enormous fear. Now I see it was totally normal. Not fun, but normal. Life takes grit to get through. It’s painful beyond what you expected. But you won’t believe what you can achieve over time, getting through the hard times, if you can just hang on.