I do not know whats wrong with me

[damon41212]

Last couple of years I got this feeling of not wanting to do anything at all. It was hard doing my regular routine of taking care of my family,but I did because I had to get these done.But the desire was not there,I even told my husband I just wanted to go home(with the Lord) its been a long hard life.I think which made this worst is my Husband of 40 years just died and my son stood as long as he could to help me through the grief move to another state to get married,which I told him to,life is short and I find my life even harder as for doing anything at all.I am lonely,I went from home right into getting married and my husband and me were each others best friend,so we did not have a lot of friends because we had each other.Not only am I having problems trying to adjust here without my husband or son,I do not want to go on,nothing to go on for. I have always been a very active and social women,loved talking and getting in involved with projects,but am now not wanting even to get up in the morning.I do not want to go on,but suicide is not an option for me.If some one knows or can relate to this,I would be thank you if you know how to end this misery.Thank you.

[MAS_Nurse]

Oh honey, welcome to our very supportive community. I really feel for you, and can only imagine how dreadful you are feeling, and how tough it is for you right now. Do you have any other family, close friends, or church community that you could also reach out to at this time? Maybe it would be a good idea to have a chat with your doctor about how you are feeling? Bereavement affects everyone differently, but the thoughts and feelings you have expressed are very common to many of us. Hopefully, you will find us here a caring and supportive bunch, and a metaphorical shoulder to cry on!

Do check out our Pinned post section for free, downloadable mental health guides. Keep our international crisis support line handy too, here is the list for the USA:

shawmindfoundation.org/supp...

Is there a bereavement counselling service in the USA whom you could call for a chat, as we do here in the UK?

Do take care, and keep in touch with us.

Best wishes,

MAS Nurse

[Strongheartforever]

Sharing your thoughts here helps other people so you have purpose in that sense. Loneliness is a signal to find support. There are so many whose lives you could lift up. You could mentor or volunteer with at risk youth or a charity that calls you. Now is the time to really ask yourself what you’d like to do. Harp lessons? Meditation group? Women’s empowerment meet up? Adopt two kittens? See a National Park? Where have you always wanted to go? Now is the time to dream. Now is the time to grow and reach out of that dark place, take someone’s hand and come back to the light. Sending you strength and friendship. Keep moving through the pain and know you’re getting closer to the answers you seek.

[BobDeVito]

I would recommend getting involved with a church group (Prayer Shawl Ministry) that knits and/or crochets Shawls and lap blankets for those who are in cancer treatment or hospice; or for a bereaved spouse. They are very comforting to receive and even I, a guy, am a member and crochet. How about volunteering with the American Cancer Society (or equivalent where you live) and offer to drive cancer patients to and from treatments and oncology appointments (called Road to Recovery). Or Reach for Recovery where you call or meet a breast cancer or other cancer type patient to help them through their journey. Just some thoughts. Also, senior centers are great fun. So are better than others. Good luck my dear. It will get better. But you are already having a purpose just being here to share your story. Remember...you are loved.