No matter how hard I try I'll never be able to find happiness

[Doomed224]

First of all I'm sorry if it's not in the right section I actually don't understand much this site. I came here hoping to at least found an answer from you guys.

I don't even know from where to start but something is going terribly wrong in my life, all I built in the last years is being destroyed and I'm just watching like a powerless idiot. I'm a young man in the twenties who found despair few years ago after high school about the horrible life who was awaiting me. I worked more than anyone else in order to come out from that xxx and I finally was able to achieve something, but now... now... I'm reverting back to what I was few years ago. I'm gonna fail at the last year at University, with girls it's getting worse and worse, I lost all my money and I got badly Ill twice in a row without reason, just random ones. I have few extremely good friends and family that's the only thing I could proud about it. I really think that I'm bound to feel pain and I almost accepted it but the fact that I don't have have a girl at my side is the worst of them all. I don't see any reason on why should I give my best. Should I kill my social life to full focus on resetting my life once again, finish my studies and get a good job, just live like a damned robot? Should I just don't give a xxxx anymore and hate this dam world till my bad luck brings me to death? I'm not thinking about xxxx like suiciding but I want to understand why I'm being punished so much? Few months ago I was almost sure to graduate, find a good job, have a relationship and in health with enough money. Now I'm just a poor useless random guy with no hope.

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello Doomed224

Thank you for your message. I guess you have been having a really difficult time. Keep going as you have been doing so many positive things with your life and hopefully things will change. It sounds as if you have some good friends, so talk to them if you feel you can.

Our members are very supportive , so may also offer you more information and support.

Perhaps you could dicuss how you are feeling with your doctor.

I am sorry but I had to remove some words that go outside of the community guidlines.

The topics and pinned posts might also offer you more help and inormation

Keep in touch and best wishes

[Alya96]

Hey

First I don't know if I am allowed to say that I know how do u feel, I am just a girl just finished her college. U feel like u have everything perfect, but without any support form the special one.. u want a special person who will support u, understand u, and love u and take care for u .. and u will take care of them and u r sure of that .. but now u feel lonely .. am I right ? Yes u r surround many of good people but u still want someone to fill that hole in ur heart ..

I am sorry if I crossed my line in anything, but the point is I know how do u feel .. and it's so painful